[splitimage]

I screwed up pretty bad and have been drinking for about a week. I finally stopped ysterday and am feeling pretty bad physically, and for relapsing.

I do know what triggered it, but bottom line I just wanted to be drunk more than I wanted to be sober.

This is stupid - I know I'm loads better off sober than drunk & I can't afford to screw up my new job.

Going to drag myself to a meeting tonight.

So I guess it's starting over at day one yet again for the umpteenth time.

--splitimage

Hello, splitimage. A battle is lost. The war goes on. Good luck.

[FFABD]

Originally Posted by splitimage

I screwed up pretty bad and have been drinking for about a week. I finally stopped ysterday and am feeling pretty bad physically, and for relapsing.

I do know what triggered it, but bottom line I just wanted to be drunk more than I wanted to be sober.

This is stupid - I know I'm loads better off sober than drunk & I can't afford to screw up my new job.

Going to drag myself to a meeting tonight.

So I guess it's starting over at day one yet again for the umpteenth time.

--splitimage

I, for one of many, would love for you to tell us all about the meeting you went to. You are a human suffering from a disease, nothing more. Do the work, hit the meetings, and let go. It will take care of itself if you do those things. Big hug here.

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by splitimage

I screwed up pretty bad and have been drinking for about a week. I finally stopped ysterday and am feeling pretty bad physically, and for relapsing.

I do know what triggered it, but bottom line I just wanted to be drunk more than I wanted to be sober.

This is stupid - I know I'm loads better off sober than drunk & I can't afford to screw up my new job.

Going to drag myself to a meeting tonight.

So I guess it's starting over at day one yet again for the umpteenth time.

--splitimage

Hey atleast you know you have an issue with drinking and the first step of getting help is knowing you have an issue .Just take one day at an time.Just keep on going too the meetings and hang with people who does not drink and people who will have your back by not letting you get away with drinking

[Leed]

Good for you for owning up to it and realizing what the problem is!! And good too that you're going to a meeting!
How did it go anyway??

Don't worry -- you're not the only one to relapse and you won't be the last. Almost everyone relapses . Just remember how awful you felt -- never forget that last drunk. ICK !!! Hugs, Lee

[madisgram]

"brush yourself off and get back up", splitimage. one day at a time. try to recall the reason for your action. they tell us we get stinkin' thinkin' long before we pick up the drink again. you can learn from this relapse by doing so. you were thinking about drinking before you picked up. did you speak up at a meeting about this? it's suggested, as you already know. "pride goeth before the fall."
your honesty helps too. jump back in with both feet. you may have drunk but all you've learned is still in you. glad your going back to meetings. keep us posted. we care.

[IceCreamKid]

Originally Posted by splitimage

I screwed up pretty bad and have been drinking for about a week. I finally stopped ysterday and am feeling pretty bad physically, and for relapsing.

I do know what triggered it, but bottom line I just wanted to be drunk more than I wanted to be sober.

This is stupid - I know I'm loads better off sober than drunk & I can't afford to screw up my new job.

Going to drag myself to a meeting tonight.

So I guess it's starting over at day one yet again for the umpteenth time.

--splitimage

Every day we wake up we are starting at day one and going forward. Each day is a fresh opportunity for good things. I thought this morning as I hauled my aching body out of bed about how I didn't want to get up but the alternative, to fall back into bed, would have made my physical pain worse. So I got up and got moving. You can do this. I have faith in you. I send you

[IceCreamKid]

I send you

When I relapsed, so many people reminded me "we're sick people getting well, not bad people getting good".

Be gentle with you. Go to your meeting. Ask for ALL of the help that you need.

[MandiePoo]

me too split. Im in the same b oat but havent stopped yet. Im weaning though. ITs hell in a handbasket and I do want off the ride, but my current issue is i am not sure I even want to be sober you know? I know i have to, but i dont WANT to.

[mgran]

Congrats on getting yourself back up, dusting yourself down, and going to the meeting.

[noneedtoknow]

Good job-just do it just for today-and if that is too much, do it for 5 minutes at a time. It gets better and easier the further away from the drink you get. Keep going to meetings.