[Mara Mountain]

This is ridiculous. I was clean for over two weeks and slipped. Always have to do with an ex. Feel hopeless now. I fell back into a drunk stuper. And what I want to say I can't because then I'll get kicked off here. So what is the point? If you're nice and you appear happy and pleasant around people, why do they ALWAYS leave?!?! I'm so angry and need to vent. I may be like this forever and alone.

[spondiferous]

If you need to vent, you can message me.
You shouldn't have to be anything other than yourself. I'm sorry you slipped; that's a tough place to be. I remember it well. It took me a long time to finally get sober, and a hell of a lot of work. My experience? Nothing is more important than putting people out of your life who will get you loaded. Exes, using/drinking buddies, toxic family or friends, etc etc. It's just not worth it. I wish you the best.

[Leed]

When I got sober, one of the first things I learned was that I had to CHANGE: PEOPLE, places and things. I couldn't hang around the same people, cause they'd get me drunk again. I couldn't hang around IN the same places cause I'd get drunk again. And I had to change many things - such as my route to and from work, so I wouldn't pass the liquor store.

If I wanted to STAY sober, I had to want it more than ANYTHING ELSE --- otherwise I was going to get drunk again.

You can pick yourself up again, and start over. You're not the only one who has ever had a lapse. Don't beat yourself up. PLEASE, get back to meetings-- I hope you've been going to some. Maybe you haven't gone to AA, but you NEED SUPPORT!! Trying to do this alone isn't going to work.

I wish you the very best. Don't give up because alcohol KILLS. God bless and I hope we hear from you again. Big hugs, Lee

[Turtleboy]

so sorry this is happening to you mara you deserve better

[Cherry73]

It took me a very long time to get clean. I went to rehab seven times and when I got out I didn't last more than 2 weeks before I would use again. It wasn't until I went many states away to long term rehab for 6 months that I got clean and have stayed clean since 11/21/2005. I realized that the only way I could stay clean was to change people, places, and things. After the six months I stayed and it was the best decision I ever made. I knew if I went back I would follow the same pattern I had for years. I stayed away for years before I even came back for a visit and it was the best decision I ever made.
I am so sorry for everything you are going through but please don't be to hard on yourself and dwell on this for to long. Accept what happened and try to learn from it and move on. If you ever need to talk feel free to message me. It wasn't until I realized that my life would never get any better until I did something about and I reached out and asked for help. Please don't hesitate to ask for help when you need it. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.