wanting it

well i have always wanted to try marijuana and now that i have, its all i want. the other day i bought this bong...seeing as ive only done it once i dont think im addicted. but i apart of me wants this bad, but the other half says no. i just dont know what to do. every thing is falling apart.

Trust your gut. If part of you is saying no, then why do it?

i wish i could answer that...but i cant, in the 3 months ive told my self..."this is going to ruin me" but i do it anyway. i wish i could say no, but i cant. so how do i begin?

If you want to stop but can't, you can try an NA meeting to find people to help so that you don't have to do it alone. NA is Narcotics Anonymous.

Woods:

Please listen to the part of you that is telling you no, I think that it may be on to something. Addiction starts out slow and then picks up suddenly, trust me I know

yeah...(Raynaadi)mmm well first of all about the n/a meeting i dont know, i dont have a car (saving up for one) no one i know would ever in their right mind take me(they'd think its werid or something). and my parents, well thats completely out of the question. ---so i supose i cant wait to get a car.
but thanx..its a good idea when i get transportation
(lgreen1951)yeah i dont know whats wrong..i just cant say no. ha ha i know that the part of me that says no is right, but how many times do we listen to it? if anything i dont follow my gut. but thanx...maybe one day ill be able to change

If you get to an NA meeting. Maybe someone there can give you a ride to meetings. As with any mind altering drug You have to make the first step and get to meetings. Good luck. One thing I did when i first started to stop alco, and drugs I went to AA Meetings I I used to stay at the place all day unti It was closing. Well I hope U do ok. oh my sober clean date. Nov. 09 1990. I will tell you one more thing about me The first day I went through Detox They were Having a meeting and the move was about useing crack and coke. I could not go to it , One of the aids stayed with me. I cryed like a baby not because I could not watch it. I wanted the drugs and was crying because I could not have it.

If you can't say "no" then I'd say you were addicted. I'd figure out some way to make myself say no, put all the money in the bank (saving for a car perhaps? :-) and find a friend or two who does something different or an activity in a different place. If you don't buy it, aren't around it, you can't smoke it. I'd start working on what you want "next" in your life (school, certain job, your own place, to travel, etc.)

I'd reduce the "wanting" by realizing we want lots of things all the time. I'd just "work on" something else I wanted that I thought was healthier for me.

I have smoked a lot of marijuana and it has done nothing to solve my problems. Marijuana is a very pleasurable drug to use - and once you try it - the draw will be there to do it again - but WHERE does it lead to? Will it really help you in attaining your heathy GOALS in life? Or, will it rather ,hinder you? What about the pysical effects of smoking on the lungs and brain?
I would recommend not using marijuana.

first weed aint addictive it aint, its the being high that gets u hooked, my brother has smoked it for years and to my knowledge he is still the same way he was b4 he started, i have tried it and I personelly hated, I became stupid and slow and couldn't function normally so i stopped, weed itself is a filthy drug it is its the cheap drug for low life scum, and thats not what u are, every person i know smokes it all my friends do it hasnt harmed them at all, but in the end it still is a drug and socially unacceptable. So just say no and get it over with or if u want smoke so much that u get greenies and pass out and throww up that will make u stop for sure. This is in no way telling ppl to go and smoke it.

you know im not sure what im doing right now. everything is a cloud of %#@&#!.
last week i went to school high. my mom found out about my failing grades and skipping school. so basically she bugged out. she wants me to go to a therapist. at first i thought it was an okay idea, but i dont know.

im grounded from friends until my grades are good. and now she might ground me from all electronics ect. so basically i have some weed upstairs. a piece and a lighter.

whatever. i cant do it today. maybe tomorrow. i have too much hw. and crap.

sry, i probably sound pretty negative right now........mmm thats probably because i am right now. sry

I can tell you from experience, even though you may not believe it now. One thing does lead to another. The instinct that is telling you NOT to smoke is behavioral. Your ability to override the gut feeling that you have is not one that you should develop; trust those instincts and you will go far. Life is habitual.

Hope it helps you to hear it from someone who has just reached the end of the rope...

Woods, listen to me!!!
Don't do it, I care about you, you are a great guy who doesn't need anything else to be funny or good to be around.
Please PM me anytime!!!

forgive me for being naieve woods im english,but when you say you have a piece did you mean a gun or what because i remember talking to you the other day and you seemed like a good kid and i would hate for anything bad to happen to you.If you wanna have a chat pm me whenever you want ok..take care
Barry.

thanx for those words.
my whole life ive know that one things would end up into something worse. and yet some how i continued. maybe some people were meant to fail. i mean, not everyone can be strong and be good. i want to believe we can all make it. but theres always the people who fill in the gaps. i guess im just one of them. maybe one day ill wake up and relize its just not worth it. but then again i tell myself that everyday......and somehow i continue. funny how when we try to stop its harder than hell.

but thanx. i dont know what ill do. i just dont know what to fight for anymore.

One of the main reasons people use drugs is to change the way they feel. They can't stand the way they feel when they're not high, so they take, snort, shoot, or smoke somthing that changes the way they feel, temporarily. Until you discover and address the feeling you're trying to change, nothing will really change. As far as not being able to tell or ask your parents for help, I told myself that for 7 years. I thought it would kill my mother to find out I was using drugs. I couldn't bring myself to ask for help because I didn't want to disappoint anyone. When I finally had to call someone to bail me out of jail (I didn't think that would ever happen to me!!) all she said was "thank God you're on drugs, I thought you had gone crazy". She was angry, upset, disappointed, and all the other things I was afraid of. In spite of all this, she still loved me and helped me get the help I needed.

well im seeing a therapist next week. but you know i its not for drugs or anything. she definately doesn't know about that. so maybe he'll help.

im glad things turned out for you. i mean the whole jail thing well i dont think that was part of your plan but im happy your mom didn't take it too hard.

mmm i dont think i can tell her i do drugs. nope i definately cant. so maybe i can just let it out on the T. mmm but i dont know how to show my feeling infront of people.
if i told the T i did drugs.would he have to tell my parents?

Generally, the only time a therapist would tell anyone anything is if you were planning on hurting yourself or someone else. Get to know the therapist a little and you will most likely realize that his/her main goal is to help you, not to tell on you. Secrets are really damaging for most people. Not feeling like you can tell someone something is a heavy burden to bear. You don't have to tell everyone everything, but it helps to be able to talk honestly to someone.

Good luck!!

hmm k. well that makes me feel better.

just wondering but do you have a T?
if you do, i was wondering if they acted differently around you?
i just think its hard to open up.
im not very good about that face to face with an adult.

i understand wot u mean i do weed n i love it but at the same time i no it messes up ur head!
i think u should do wots best for u!

yeah i know what you mean imere2help. i like it too. cant really stop it. because why stop something you like right? bad thinking i know. but your right it does mess up your head. but i could die any day at any time. might as well live.

but thats a good way to think about it. do whats best. its just that sometimes im not too good at doin that

If I was you, one I would stay away from AA or NA. They will teach you that you're an addict and you're "powerless" over weed. By teaching you that you're an addict, you will begin to believe this is true and start using hard drugs as if you were an addict. It's a self fulfilling prophecy. Plus AA/NA has a 95 percent failure rate, so, it's pointless to go. AA/NA is real big on this belief that only god can save you. Oh and they will tell you, you have a disease. Which is not true, just a bad behavior.

If you really want to stop smoking weed, you will. If you get tired of smoking it, then you will stop. It's pretty easy. If you enjoy smoking weed, then that's on you. It's your decision if you want to stop.

Ironically, there is a terrific South Park episode (season 9, "Bloody Mary") that almost exactly coincides with this way of thinking.

I'm not saying that the advice posted here is wrong, but Woods, please remember that this is just one person's opinion. Lots of people find AA and NA to be very useful. I don't believe it's as easy as just 'stopping' because many people have a very difficult time kicking drug and alcohol habits. I think you're smart to be concerned about yourself this early in the game. It's almost like you recognize a potential habit that YOU might have to mood enhancers.

I'm not anti-marijuana, but everything has its time and place. School is not one of them. Sounds to me as though you're looking for some kind of way to escape, and IMO, that is NOT a good reason for smoking pot.

I'm glad that you're seeking help and are realizing that it's not the right thing for you. If you feel that you're susceptible to psychological addiction, then definitely stay away.

Good luck, Woods

haha oh well you know i have to see that episode now.

definately everyone has their own opinions. i guess everyone has to experience things for themselves. to really know how thigns work.

yeah i know its a problem. but its stoping the problem, when your friends do it. my friends have already planned for me to get some alchohol with them on friday. its like a big ball of crap. cant stop the crap. just gotta roll with it. or else you'll get trampled.

yeah you could say drugs is an escape. but then so is a lot of things for me. this kinda makes me wish i had no money to buy anything. but then again i feel very different later.
i dont know really what to think. kinda just stuck in a crack where i continue what i do. and no change happpens

Here a link to the South Park episode where they make fun of AA http://mrtwig.net/ep/914.html

There is also a funny episode from Penn & Teller's ******** that makes fun of 12 Step Groups.

If you don't wanna drink or drug, but all your friends drink and drug. Then maybe you could seek out new friends. I understand it will not be very pleasant if you decided to stop hanging around your current friends and try to seek out new friends. I understand that would be a hard thing to do. But, that's could help you with your decisions on whether to drink or drug or not.

Does drinking or drugging make you feel good or not? Do you go overboard when you drink or drug? Perhaps you could try to moderate. I don't know how much you smoke weed or drink. You could try to find a therapist.

Here are some alternatives to AA/NA. They're pretty different from AA/NA, none of them tell you that you have a disease or you're powerless and only god can save you like they do in AA/NA.

www.rational.org
www.smartrecovery.org
www.unhooked.com
www.secularsobriety.org
www.moderation.org