[wanting]

I have been given citalopram three days ago by my doctor but before that for the past few months i have been drinking heavily and i know i have to stop as ive been experiencing blackouts more and more frequently,and i also know that the pills and alcohol do not mix well.Tight is the first night in a while that i have decided not to buy drink and my god i think i am gaining an addiction as i have a craving for it that is as bad as quitting smoking is how it feels.can someone tell me how to get through the night please b/c all i want is to go out and buy some alchol right now.
Barry

[Rhapsody]

Hang in there and know that it takes 21 days (straight) to even begin to break a habit.... YOU can DO IT!!!

LoVe,
Rhapsody - <font color="brown"> (((( hugs )))) </font>

[wanting]

Thanks Rhapsody,its good to know there are people out there who care,but i suppose another thing is how do i leave the house this late withought the family becoming aware lol i feel like a teenager in away.Oh man i feel bad right now.

[Rhapsody]

1st - STOP and THINK ................ before YOU go sneaking out for that one drink, for it will lead to many more - Is IT worth the pain after wards?

YOU can DO IT - Please Hang in There....... We are rooting for YOU!!!

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[wanting]

Well today is another day.I spent most of last night in a terrible state and didnt get to sleep until about six in the morning although i didnt have to get up until 11:30 so it wasnt to bad.I managed to get through though and did it by browsing through the forums until a felt tired enough to sleep.So thanks Rhapsody for your support,it really did help me a great deal.I am so glad i found this place it is full of love and kindness.

[ster]

Fantastic, You can do it.

[shadowalker164]

Wanting…
Welcome to the whacky world of recovery.

When I first tried to get and stay sober, they told me the good news was I would get my feelings back, and the bad news was I would get my feelings back.

None of us ever died from lack of sleep early in our sobriety, and neither will you. Just one day at a time my friend. Just do the things today that you did yesterday, and you will get today what you got yesterday.

And keep coming back, it works, it really does!
Richard

[(JD)]

I know water doesn't have the same lasting effect that alcohol does for you, but if you drink a lot of water, it will satiate the genuine thirst your body has.

Do whatever works, this is a good path you are on!

[ster]

Chocolate ice cream . is a feel good food. in 1990 when I entered AA. I started wih a pint, then a quart then a half gallon Then a tub. Do you sse a pattern there obsissive it did help me get through some things They say what ever works. I wont lie to you a say every thing was peachey the first year. I got throght it then I began working one the program I had to do it that way I was antisocial. I'm just letting you know it does work. I had to stay around for rthe good things to happen and god sure led me the program works IF you put as much effert in getting a drink in soberity Youi will.

[wanting]

My god i think i want to cry,because im siiting here now with a drink in hand and a 75cl bottle of SC 1/4 gone in half an hour.I guzzeld it and it felt good and now i truly know that i have a problem not only with depression but with drink as well.Oh joy.thats another fine mess ive gotten myself into.lol.
thanks so mutch for your support though people.I love you all....Barry

[wanting]

I will keep trying though i promise that to myself as well as you lot.

[domino]

Hi Barry, I just wanted to say that I really feel for you right now. I don't have a problem with alcohol but it's more a problem with food. My mum has a problem with it bit she doesn't want to admit it. We live miles apart she is living in a far away land and I live in Europe. I know about her problem but she just thinks it's normal to drink at one point in the day. To cut a long story short I had a father that drunk quite a bit and smoked 80 cigarettes a day and who died seven years ago and a mother who drinks, I don't do either of those except for the odd glass of wines when we are with friends, but my drug is food. I think everyone has a problem but not all of us have the same problem to deal with. You can quit smoking or you can quit drinking but you can't quit eating. At the moment my drug is eating.

[wanting]

thank you domino for your support,and i know that addiction can be toward anything.if your body craves it it will make you get it no matter what.so of course we all have to be strong but that can be so hard as now know.I am feeling drunk right noe and i can feel depressive thougts coming,oh my why do i do THIS!!!!

[wanting]

oh my god the devil realy does show his face wen you are weakest.I know i should not post suicidal intentions omthis site and i nearly did but im not i was gonna inclufe how i would do it but im not b/c nobody deserves it as much as me

[Perna]

It doesn't last and it "hurts." That's the best I can do. I'm 56 tonight and have had too much to drink and I'll regret it tomorrow. It's that "experience" I remember; all the times I swore I wouldn't drink too much again, etc. They didn't really work but "time" did. I have weight and health problems and they hold me back now because of my drinking. I don't drink as much now as I use to because, finally, my body caught up to me. If your body is complaining, think of it and what it's telling you; WILL YOURSELF to listen.

[wanting]

thank you perna ,i will try to heed your words,but things are so hard right now

[wanting]

I have drunk nearly the whole 70cl bottle(ive checked) and i havent blacked out yet.Does tis also tell me i have a problem and a dependence to it also.i wish i could just die and all of this would be over.

[wanting]

a whole 70cl bottle and i aint dead oh well i guess i have to deal with tomorrow.

[domino]

I hope you can get some sleep. I think that once you've had a good night's sleep you'll feel better even you wake up with a bit of hungover. Take care of yourself.

[(JD)]

Hmm In less than 90 minutes you went from I will try to having drunk the entire bottle. Hope you are able to try harder next time.

You posted in this forum, so your asking us IF you have a problem was already answered by you.

Hope you have a better day today, and night tonight

[wanting]

Me and some work mates are going to se a comedian tonight so im going to go on my bike so that i dont drink,as thats one thing i never do is drink and drive.Wow what a plan lol apart from that i feel so very rough today,but thanks for your support everyone,youre all so very kind.

[Raynaadi]

I did that kind of stuff too. Driving my car so I wouldn't drink, taking no money so I wouldn't drink. It never worked. I'd end up saying screw it and calling a cab. There was one night that I didn't have anything to drink, all day, and I was so proud of myself. Of course I went right back to drinking the next day. I don't think people without alcholism issues think about the fact that they went a whole day without a drink. People who don't have a problem with alcohol don't think of ways to not drink. I just hit a year and a half of sobriety, and you can too. If you're interested in how I did it, let me know.

~Rayna

[ster]

Rayna nice to hear, you have been working on your life, instead of washing it away.

[prodigiousgamer]

roffle cops . yes i think that i have a little drinking problem. every night after work i go out to a bar and drink 12 shots of tequila. i then pass out and fall on the floor of the bar and wake up the next morning at 5 am. i have just enough time to walk home and get some clothes on. i then run 1.34 miles to my work and work on some new computer programs. when i get all stressed out i go out into the parking lot at lunch to light up a few cigarettes. i think work for another couple hours and then i head out to the bar to do it all over again.

[shadowalker164]

Prodigiousgamer…

Why do you post stuff like that? This is a recovery site, not a glorifying in getting drunk site. If you want to tell an apprehensive audience all about how much you drink, how you sleep it off on the bar room floor every night, and then function at work, trot you’re a## back to that bar, maybe they will buy it. But I ain’t buying it.

One of two things, #1 you are a poser looking for attention, or #2 you are a straight up drunk like me and you are lying through your teeth.

Richard