[woods]

how on earth could i have done this.

you see this weekend i was being stupid. my best friend. she doesn't like me drinking. and all of a sudden out of know where i let her get drunk. i just felt so bad. it was like seeing me. and it hurt. really bad. but i let it happen. i didn't have enough, so i was clear minded. but its my best friend for Gods sake.

-then the next day. i brought some marijuana over to my friends house. and there was her sister (2 years younger) my friend and her sis boy friend who, a year older than me.
anyway i wanted some....so we went in this closet thingy. but my friend didn't want any and her boy friend has to lay off it for wrestling. great for me. i taught an 8th grader how to do drugs. my friend just laughed. but you know what i feel. I FEEL terrible. she looked so young. so scared. and some how i let her get high.

i thought i was over all this.......@!! i didn't do anything about wanting it, and now. im letting others fall into this %#@&#!.

ugh im sry im rambling but i feel i have dirty hands in a sense.
i feel so responsible. i know its my fault, i provided everything. i dind't stop them. i let it happen.

[wanting]

Woods,what you done yes it wasnt very wise,and i would advise you not to do it again,not only could you get into serious trouble,but i know that you have a good heart otherwise you wouldnt be beating yourself up over this.Take it as a lesson not to involve others,if you really have to do these things although i would advise against both,of course as ive been there and done it all and it doesnt lead to anything good,I know from previous posts that you havent been doing this for a very long time so please try to stop it because the longer you leave it the harder it will get.pm me if you want a chat anytime woods and take care.