[elevatedsoul]

im a recovering alcoholic and have a spotted history of drug abuse... i am just wondering how do you guys deal with the empty feeling? i go most days thinking about abusing my psych meds (but i dont abuse them) just because i feel empty and like i need some kind of drug to pick me up out of a hole

i dont like feeling like this and wish i could just live a sober life, but i can't stop feeling like something is missing

does anyone relate?

[gayleggg]

Are you by any chance in an AA program, where you could get support from other people and to hang out with?

I filled my hole with spirituality(not religion). I read a book called "A New Earth" by Ekhart Tolle that helped me tremdously. I don't know if it would help you, but they usely have copies in half price books stores or you can get used ones on Amazon pretty cheap. There are a lot of other books that help you heal that hole. Wayne Dyer has put out several with the same theme.

My hole tends to come back if I get too busy and forget what I've learned to do to calm myself, so it is a slow process.

I may be off base for you but I hope you find healing.

[elevatedsoul]

thanks gayle, i dont participate in an AA program.... i have social phobia so have trouble with stuff like that but i have been trying to do positive things and keep myself busy; riding around instead of staying locked up in my room

i used to be religious, but during my early teens i "renounced", if you will, the "faith" ; i just had been through alot and read a lot of things and figured at some time that its better for me to not just follow 1 book of rules if that makes sense? no offense to religion! it helps a great deal of people and thats good

sometimes it feels like i have a good handle on the addictions, but then like a switch pops i have urges

[Altered Moment]

For me when I got sober after a couple of years my depression got worse. I was no longer self medicating and the psyche meds were not working. I can't go back to self medicating because that won't work. That was a disaster. Get sober and life is supposed to be well and wonderful. Don't work that way. It takes a lot of hard work. Even for people without dual diagnosis it takes a lot of hard work. I have read many many spiritual books including the one gaylegg mentioned. I have like a compilation of beliefs that work for me.

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