No coming back this time?

My depression and mental health got so bad that I turned to drugs again. This time I got severely addicted. I stopped a week ago since I had no money left but I don't believe its over. When I get paid I'm sure to continue down this ugly painful path. My mental health is too poor for me to go to meetings or clinics since I am basically a recluse . I don't know what to do anymore. I need some kind of emotional support . Thanks for reading

Hello cryingontheinside: I'm sorry you are struggling. There is a saying that goes: "No matter how far you've travelled down the wrong road... TURN BACK!" Realistically, I doubt there's any suggestions I could offer that you're not already well aware of. In some way you are going to have to find the inner strength to reach out, in real life, for the help you need. I send warm hugs your way with the hope that it might be so...

I am freshly sober and had a slip up myself. And today In between hiding under the covers, I've called for "stuff". We're going to trip up. It's going to happen. I'm struggling hard to stay sober so all I can say is I know how you feel and it's ok. And you can always come back from a slip. Can you go to a rehab? Are you open to that? PM me anytime if you need to talk.