[Fuzzybear]

[chalmette70043]

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[Raynaadi]

Fuzzy how can we help?

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks everyone, I'm not sure .... I feel I use food as a medication (sometimes binging numbs my pain a bit) and have put on weight which disgusts me. But I'm not sure if that belongs here. Sorry if it doesn't....


btw "family" history has severe addictions, with one aunt being severely dependent on alcohol and another on food (very obese)

[Raynaadi]

I know exactly what you're saying about food. It strikes me the most at night. Its terrible!! Just last night for example, bf and I had a big dinner and yet at around midnight, I just wanted to EAT. I had a mini bag of microwave popcorn and some cantoloupe.

I'm not sure why it strikes me at night the worst. I'll be laying in bed reading and just want to snack. I notice it more when I'm going through a rough time emotionally, and September is always a rough month for me.

I also tend to every bit of food on my plate even if I'm stuffed. Thats one thing I'm really working on, stopping when I'm full. I think part of that though is not knowing when I'll get my next meal, so when I have a meal I tend to eat it all.

I know for me, I do the "emotional eating" thing. Something in my brain makes me think I'll feel better if I eat something. I'm really trying to watch it and let the moment pass, but its hard in the evenings.

I think this topic fits here. I know food can lead to addiction. Heck, ANYTHING can lead to addiction. I'm trying to teach myself moderation and self restraint. I can do it during the day, but I falter at night.

I'm sure there are many with this issue so perhaps we can support each other in this thread, and share tips about how we made it through food cravings etc.

Fuzzy I feel ya hon!!!! I'm really trying to work on feeling better physically and it helps with the mental stuff. I think I might be getting a Pilates workout addiction.

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks Rayna! I get the food cravings much worse at night too, and I think having been brought up in a "mean" household where waste was a "Crime" might contribute. Last night I decided to leave the second spring roll in a huge Chinese Takeaway but a part of me almost felt "sorry" for it, leaving it there. Yeah sounds nuts I know. I just ate it though, after taking a bit of a break from eating I could eat it without feeling too full.... something which rarely happens to me! (feeling too full) Sometimes I think I should change my username too.!

[Raynaadi]

Yeah I know for me, its like an obsession. Its hard for me to have one of anything. So if I snack, I just want more and more once I start eating. And yet like today its already noon and I haven't eaten a thing. I can go hours and hours without eating and then the second I eat, I can't stop!

[RiverX]

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but a part of me almost felt "sorry" for it, leaving it there. Yeah sounds nuts I know.

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I hope you dont mind me bringing this bit up again, (oh, no sorry, no innuendo meant!), but actually, this is kinda interesting to me. I find I get things round back to front inside me a bit like you did with the spring roll, I did with therapist, I kept feeling I was there to feed her needs for power and be there generally for her needs, (which is kind of as in reverse as eating the food for the foods needs).


A T once said to me 'my energy is in reverse', I knew exactly what he meant.

I think these really small self awarenesses all add up to understand ourselves........... ?

wishing you well,

river.

[DePressMe]

Food cravings...yep, I get them too. I think I have an addictive personality--anything that gives me pleasure (and a few things that cause pain) I get addicted to. Part of my alcohol and drug recovery depends on keeping my other addictions and obsessions under control. If I let one get out of hand, pretty soon the others start to go...like a cascading effect. I hope this does not sound too dramatic, but eating right and not binging is an important part of my recovery and could lead me back down the road to picking up the bottle or pipe if I don't keep it in check. The physical aspect of recovery is very important to me. I am not saying that one binge in a Mexican restaurant is going to lead to margaritas...but given time, it all takes it's toll.