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Thanks split,
There are other reasons for me dropping out of AA though I was barely in it.
I will PM you later. Have a great day!
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I don't know if I've mentioned this in the past or not, but have you checked to see if there's a SMART recovery meeting in your city? It fits really well with the WFS program, and would be IRL support.

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I did look into it but there are not any meetings.
thank you for the suggestion and for caring...still owe you a PM...later.
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I ate and drank too much at whole foods trivia in their bar.
oh well
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The woman from NAMI carolyn, canceled on me. Last night, we were going to go to the gym and walk on the tred mill and have a lite dinner afterward, but she backed out.
So going with jeff was my option at the time. I should have just went to the gym by myself.
My resolve to not drink went out the window!
My tool box is empty.
sigh

I wish I had more friends.
I am going to go to church tomorrow and maybe see an old friend, maybe I can mingle with her or someone else there. It is a Unitarian fellow ship.
My only real friend here has asked us to go hiking tomorrow. We usually drink with them but they are dieting right now so maybe we would just hike and that be all we would do with them...

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I am not doing AA. I can't agree to their steps at all.
After breakfast this morning at the diner as usual :
I went to the UU Unitarian universalist fellowship downtown.
I like it.
This will be on a somewhat regular basis now.
If I can get up earlier than usual on a sunday.
like 8;30 and leave at 930 for breakfast and drive
separately then I can get there some time between
10;30 for social-11am for service.
I spoke with Mary. I had dinner with her one night with susan.
This was before susan stopped being my friend.
Last week I texted her that I was going to AA. she was happy about that.
So maybe we can be friends again.
Alcohol was a big factor with her husband. He drinks alot.
They have been divorced for some time now.
Susan goes to the fellowship if I did not make that clear.
So I don't know how that will pan out.
She had a music gig out of town and that is why she was not there today.

I am cooking brussel sprouts and sausage in the oven for dinner tonight.
Have never done this before so hope it turns out.

Am doing my scrubs/laundry they are drying.
Visited a friend who had major surgery,
brought her flowers and talked for an hour or so.
It was good to see her.
She was in bed recuperating.
It was sunny out today the weather was nice enough to just wear a sweater.
I heard from my family in northern IN.
The temps on wednesday high of -12 and a low of -30.
scarey stuff. yes those are minus numbers NOT wind chill!
I hope every one has had a nice weekend.
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1. I have a life-threatening problem that once had me.

I now take charge of my life and my well-being. I accept the responsibility.

Alcohol is no longer running my life. I have always taken responsibility.

and yes alcohol can be toxic, and dangerous. I won't be drinking. As I see it there are too many risks involved. And I have seen in the past that I can't moderate.
For me, abstinence is really the way to healing my brain....
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I am much better today. Advil helps a lot!
The magnesium lotion did not seem to help nor did the CBD cream.
A moist heated bean neck pillow last night felt good.
This evening I can deep breath with out much pain so that is vast improvement from yesterday!
I canceled my last client for today and put her onto next week. I did not feel up to it and wanted to do some meat shopping.
For less than $50 I bought 30 entrees (15x2 meals), chicken, pork chops, sausage, chicken patties, meatloaf and shrimp that we

had tonight for dinner. I cooked using a brown roux for the base

and added chicken broth and garlic and onions, and celery and yellow squash and chives and tomatoes. Cooked all of that down then added the shrimp and let it cook for a few minutes. I had used some spices but it wasn't too hot.Jeff said he thought it was good...don't know what that means.
WE had some left overs I combined them with the left over brussel sprouts. I bet they will be tasty.
The roux was not flavorful because I added too much water. At first it was so think that I had to add water to thin it but I added too much water.
So it was thin. Oh well. I learned something.

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It is minus 18 at my folks in northern IN. with a wind chill of minus 45. They have a wind advisory all morning. My sister in south bloomington have the same wind not as cold but their furnace is not working right.
sigh
I really feel for my family.
burr!!!!!
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it is 37 here. Bur. for us

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I am not a good cook, I bought some chili from sandras today and added beans and some roasted corn. I spiced mine up a bit after using sour cream and it was very good!
I also sauteed a pound of fresh mushrooms in butter and cooked them completely down, we had those for dinner as well.
Did a bit of sewing...our cat hazel kneeded my sweater and put small holes in it. so I sewed them up. I think that it came out pretty good.

Today, both my parents and my sister had problems with their heating units. Mom and dad have a big boiler for their baseboard heat. They live almost into michigan. They finally figured out what was wrong after talking with the installer tonight so the heat is back on. IT had gotten to be 51 degrees in the house. very nerve wracking because the temp is heading down to minus 23 degrees F. My sisters furnace finally kicked on too. They don't know why. My whole family lives in Indiana, so does my mother in law.
Hubby talked to her earlier.
Her house is warm.

She lives in INDY so it is not as cold there...still cold for sure.
So happy the heat is on for everyone!
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I would not want my heat to go out in this weather. So glad that your family's heaters came back on. It's crazy how cold out it is. Yesterday it was -20 here with a windchill of -31. I have to go out today, to pick up meds. I'm supremely grateful I have a super warm arctic down coat and mitts.

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I am glad that you have arctic gear split.
I did not know you played the harp....I read it on your bio today. Is it a big one or a small one?
Good luck going out today.
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(((((HUGS)))))
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Bizi,

I play a large celtic harp. The big harps you see in symphony orchestras are pedal harps, and use pedals to set sharps and flats, and have 47 strings.

Celtic or folk harps use levers at the top of the string to set flats and sharps. They're typically smaller than pedal harps, and the floor harps normally have around 33 strings. But I have a larger than normal floor harp as it has 40 strings. The extra strings were important to me, as it gives me a greater range of bass that I can play, which is important in Latin American music, which is something I play a lot of.

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sounds lovely split!

How is the taper going?

My scale said 179.8....thank Goodness The scale has budged!
The weight is coming off very very slowly this time.

I made a chicken piccata last night.
It was the most ingredients of a recipe that I have made in a while.
It had a lemon butter sauce with capers, yum!

Jeff loved it!
I will try to make it again in the future.

Very light work day today, One client this afternoon, none this morning so have plenty of time to goof off and maybe do some laundry and some filing if I feel like it.


My ribs still bother me so I ate some yogurt and took 4 advill, the cbd cream did not help nor the magnesium lotion. Only the advil helps.
I hope that they heal soon as I don't want to expose my liver to any thing harmful. 4 advill is the prescription strength.

I called about my labs, it has been almost 2 weeks since I had them drawn.
She said they just got them in and would review them with my MDOC and then send me a copy. That is poor service on lab cores part. What if there was something seriously wrong!!!!!

Onto my 3 rd cup of coffee, had better finish up catching up on the forums.
Thank yall for reading.
have a great weekend!
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I took a shower today!!!!!
off I go to lunch then my one client for the day!
looking for something to do beside go to whole foods bar for trivia.
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I treated myself to a pedicure and a 90 minute facial at aveda beauty school.
They were both very good and exactly what I needed.
Am going to trivia tonight but later and eat dinner but not drink.
I can do this!
Called a friend to see if she would want to go to the gym and walk on the tred mill with me on sunday.
She will call me on sunday.
I have been ABS a week so far.

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I went to whole foods late for trivia, I really don't play I just sit there and drink...
this time I played a bit and drank water after eating a double stack burger with pepper jack cheese and caramelized onions, mushrooms and bacon! Ate it with spicy brown mustard and with a fork and knife because I did not have the bun.
AM trying this low carb diet thing. I just have to lose some of this weight that I have gained.
I work tomorrow out of town so have to get up early on a saturday....
I will be clear headed.
Hubby and I are about to watch LOST.
Love that show.
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I had 2 things happen to me that were not pleasant.
at one oclock I went to a new clients house in an awful part of town and was told by a nurse who was just leaving that the house was infested with cock roaches. I thought well I can deal with that.
well no I could not I was all buggy and such there were little baby ones on the floor and bigger ones on the bath room sink then I was worried about them getting into my bag that was on the floor so I kept an eye on it.the sitter who was there seemed to be uneffected by the bugs.
I did a pedicure but that was the fastest one I have ever done. She paid me and I left. I call it hazardous pay. I will never go back there. I told this story to my friend and we decided that I need to report this to the adult protection agency. This is elderly abuse. So I will do that on monday.

When I got home from my lovely afternoon at the beauty school hubby had brought in the mail and left it on the counter. I riffled thru it and saw there was a notice from the post office that they had tried to deliver a certified letter to me but was unable.
I am trying to not freak out about this.
Like why is some one sending me a certified letter????????
I am always afraid that I might get reported to the board of nurses for what I do. There was a case last month that really got to me. I really should not have done her. I definitely went beyond my scope of practice with out doctor orders.

So I am really worried about that.
I signed the note and put it back into the mail box marking the note to redeliver and leave at the door. They may not beable to do that if they need a signature.

Just what I don't need.
Of course I am worried and think of the worst case scenario....
Jeff says to not worry about it until we get it.
That is easy for him to say.
geesh
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Her daughter managers her affairs and sees to it that she has 24/7 around the clock to stay with her. So I think the daughter should do something about the house. I don't know whose house it is. APS can sort that out. Somebody needs to do something. I feel as a nurse it is my duty to report this situation.

Tomorrow could be a very busy day. up early to go to breakfast then church then social/pot luck(maybe not do this). Hubby is going to a friends house prior to the super bowl party starting at 5.
I may go to the gym with a girl friend to walk on the tred mill, if she is up to it...(my gut feels that she will not want to do that.)
So depending upon if I go to the gym will depend upon when I go to the super bowl party. Maybe I will go with jeff to his friends house, his girlfriend is there from hong kong. So this is why women are allowed to the super bowl party this year. Usually it is just guys.

Abstaining from alcohol (abs) is on the plan. Bringing sparkling waters and zevia is also on plan. Along with the sweetener stevia to sweeten just plain water. I will run to the store today to pick up these things.
WE will have left over chili for dinner.
What to do with the rest of my day. It is very warm and sunny today.
70 degrees. I have laundry to do today and filing that needs to be done soon....

Have a great day all yall!
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That situation with the cockroaches sounds truly horrible. I'd definitely report it, as that's not sanitary. I had to deal with a roach infestation a few months ago - they were a problem throughout the whole building, so I had to have an exterminator come in 6 times to get rid of the problem. Frustrating but so worth it.

Hope you have fun at the superbowl party.

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Think I forgot to tell you that we are doing a meal service a gain. We have used this company before. They are really expensive but our mother in law gave us $100 for christmas the box comes wednesday.
The food sounds delicious and the next week sounds even better.
It was $85 for 6 meals. But the produce is all organic and such.
that leaves us $15....

My credit card had fraudulent charges on it.
an eye lid cream for $92 and 2 other charges from same company.
Capital one reached out to me and canceled the $92 one and will refund me the other 2 charges. They canceled my credit card and are sending me a new one...it should be here by wednesday.
I am lost with out it.

I took the car in to have the air conditioner inspected to diagnose why it lost freon. We will pick it up before breakfast this morning. They open at 9am. I need to get going.

Have a good day yall!
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Well I received the certified letters and they were a complaint on my license.
so I will have to jump over hoops to get out of this subpoena.
sigh
just what I don't need.
I am drinking like a fish tonight.
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I spent the day calling dr's offices, people getting info, left messages return calls. sigh am exhausted.
I did see 3 people this afternoon and 4 tomorrow.This is difficult and frustrating. I think the lawyer will work for me. he is going to call me tomorrow to discuss the matter.
wish me luck.
I need an extension for the time frame work of all of the paper work that is due.
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WE made a meal kit tonight from sun basket. It was very good.
Shrimp and cauliflower rice with sweet potatoes.
my ribs still hurt from my fall 10 days ago.
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I think that I will work on it sunday. Tomorrow, I am working seeing 5 clients to get caught up from this weeks disturbances.
I will start by using word documents on line it is a program to help you type up stuff.
The extension went thru so that is good, buys us 2 weeks to gather what we need and for me to write up a good statement jeff will help me as I am not a good writer.
Sigh
If I lose my license then I will create

a new business and call it." Go2toes"
my car plates will say "go2toes".
I have to start thinking this way.
As It is a real possibility that I will lose my license.

I am not freaking out about it.
I will change my website and my business cards and brochures and take the wording off of my car. create a new web site...it is doable.
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