[MuddyBoots]

A few weeks ago I attempted by mixing rubbing alcohol and Klonopin but stopped after a few sips because surprisingly drinking rubbing alcohol and taking Klonopin took me out of the "I have to die right now" state of mind. Obviously got hospitalized when my doc found out and saw me still unstable that day.

Haven't thought too much of drinking until today when I went for a walk and found out there is a closer liquor store than the one I thought was closest. Like, two miles closer. That's an easy 4 mile out and back walk through some pretty parts of town. I'm not gonna lie; I was really tempted to go in.

(I mean, they want me to up my calorie count, right? that's one way to do it) (that was a bad joke not my genuine thought process)

I think I'm going to load up my to-do list for the next week or so to make sure I have no time or reason to head down there, and just not kick myself in the butt if I don't cross everything off.

[WastingAsparagus]

I'm sorry you've been feeling that way.

One way I use to combat things like that is finding a passion or something you're really interested in and just going for it.

I'm not saying you have to go that far into such a passion in a week or something, that would probably be obsessive or something, (although if you are obsessive about a passion, I don't think that is such a bad thing).

I like your idea of just being busy with a to-do list. I would make sure some of the things on it are fun.

I think you can do it.

[splitimage]

Way to go on not giving into the temptation to go in, that was a huge win.

I think staying busy is a great idea, just don't overload yourself too much since being tired can be a trigger for some people.


I agree with Wasting Asparagus that it would be a good idea to make sure you have some things you enjoy doing on your list.

When I was in early sobriety, I made a point to mentally celebrate getting through the day sober. Just thinking "Way to go me, I didn't go to the liquor store and stayed sober" and then doing something small that I enjoyed as a reward. I kept it small since Ii was broke, just having a cup of my favourite herbal tea. I still do this to a lesser extent today, since i do get random cravings once in a while, and at the end of the day when I go to bed, I kind of mentally cheer myself.