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Jun 28, 2025, 03:45 PM
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being a chaos junky with low self-esteem as been a continuous puzzle to navigate and put pieces together to stray away from the pattern. things go good and i have to screw it up.
there have been significant improvements, but so much more work to do. sometimes i forget there's more work to do and then i hear myself talk. i struggle to reconcile my past and all of the trauma it entails. done to me, and my own doing to myself and others. for a time, i saw myself as damned. i truly mean that. no higher power could ever love me or want me. sometimes i wonder if i can ever serve enough penance to be worth serenity, and in that way i am my own block. it's up to me to decide that, so i need to forgive my own self. i'm struggling to do that. and forward i go.
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Jun 30, 2025, 06:52 AM
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Think Progress not Perfection.
I can relate to being a chaos junkie and self sabotaging when things start to go well. That was me for a long time. Thing is, we can unlearn that pattern. Something that helped me accept my past and learn to like myself was compassion focused therapy. If you google self-compassion on Amazon there are some good books on the subject. I recommend The Mindful Path to Self-Compassion.
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Yesterday, 07:49 PM
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thank you my friend. you're right, progress not perfection.
i'll look into more of that. i appreciate it.
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