Nothing to look forward to.

I see absolutely NOTHING - ZERO - ZILCH to look forward to.
Whether it be a party , camping , upcoming holidays , spending time
with family , or just chatting on the phone. The only thing that's
keeping me going is my dog and PC .
Sorry for the self-pity party , but its true .
I absolutely HATE my life .
If I won $10 million in the lottery , my life would still suck.
I could buy alot more and have financial security , but I still
wouldn't be happy . Honestly I wouldn't .
Feel free to ignore .

I completely know what you are saying.

I have tons of good stuff in my life--good family, good T, good Pdoc, health benefits, a roof over my head, meals to eat, adorable and loving pets, a best friend that is worth her wieght in gold...And I still can't get excited about anything or look forward to anything.

I don't want to die, but wouldn't mind getting hit over the head with a sledge hammer and going into a coma for a couple years.

I am sorry we both feel this way.

I could never ignore a post I can relate to so much
If I knew how to improve this situation I'd tell you. But I have no idea, so you have to settle for some hugs

Thanks Berries , but I'd probably screw that up too.

Hugs back to you freak

This is a great illustration of depression. I think I may have used something comparable to try to explain depression to an old friend.

Please accept a gentle hug from this depression-worn soul who's too apathetic at present to even attempt commiseration. Words are like pebbles against a steel wall.

(((Babysteps)))

Ain't depression just so lovely. Just letting you know, I know the feeling very well.

$10 million You're right - had money didn't help.

I think there is something to look forward to, but you just can't see it right now. That's the thing with depression - it hides the truth from us.

Please trust that there IS something to look forward to.

At least you DO have your dog. Maybe you can find a new park to go with or a new walking path. Keep searching... keep believing

It's amazing how we are all depressed and yet find something
positive to hold on to . Hope , anything , never give up .
Look at the things you have and be grateful for them.
I am , but I'm STILL depressed . I used to have a cigarette when
I was stressed . I quit that . I used to have a few beers when
I felt down . I quit that . I used to eat junk food and sweets
when I was feeling low. I quit that . All because I thought it
would be a great step into feeling better about myself.
Well guess what . NOT. I need a smoke and a beer , how about
a pack of smokes and a 24 pk of beer . Just kidding , I would
never go back there , but it was a thought , just a thought.
Ranting again .....

I feel the same way as you do and I'm an emotional eater too (always prepared with either a chocolate cookie or a brownie). But the best thing is that you manage to get away from all those smoking and drinking. Even though they don't make you feel better, they won't affect your health. I mean... be healthy=be happy
I get depressed sometimes and I use to go outside and take a walk(with a dog would be better, but I never had the chance to have one). Take one during a good sunny day, it really helps.
Hope you feel better,
hugs

Depression seized me when I was near the peak of my physical health. In its early stages I increased my efforts and became "healthier," but depression didn't care.

I would love to be among those for whom physical and emotional health walk together. I am not.

Babysteps, I think depressives like us need to use a different calculus in weighing what's best for us - body, mind and spirit.

(((((((((((((((((( Babysteps ))))))))))))))))))

Babysteps,
I'm sorry to hear you are having a bad time. I wish there was some kind of advice I could give you, but I feel the exact way you do. Just letting you know I care

BabySteps

((((((Babysteps))))))
Know exactly how you feel and I hope you feel better soon

Dear Babysteps, Your original post continues to percolate in my mind (by now it's dark roast, for sure...). You have two things that offer a measure of joy: a dog and PC. I find myself wanting to distill that peculiar joy and mix it with Alaskan's Happy Juice.

Hmmm...Too early to develop this...

Yes , Alaskan's happy juice is always a big hit .
He is such a wonderful person and so are all of you .

I"m here with you Babysteps.