In that place again...sorry for being pathetic!

((((((splitimage))))))

Well Done on the 6 months! I went over a decade at one point but it doesn't take much to slip back and when you do...as I found out the hard way...it's SO hard to get back to square one of not drinking at all.

I want you to know that your support and understanding DOES help as I'm surrounded by a lot of people who don't understand.

I'll be getting away from that for a few days this weekend and hopefully it will give me time to reorder my thoughts so to speak.

I'm going to spend a few days with a friend in Cheshire, a nice part of the country, away from the hood a few days may help. Not being surrounded all the time by drink and drugs may help and my ptsd should be lower. I know it's a poor excuse but that's always been my excuse for drinking...excuse I know for sure!

Thank you again for your continued support and please do feel free to pm me any time you need.

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I'd drink more to drown out the feelings. Repeat stupid viscious circle.

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Hi Roz - glad that post helped you! OH THERE HAVE BEEN DAYS WHEN I WANTED TO COME HOME AND DRINK! Ha!

My mom who lives on the back 2 acres is one of those "draining" people. With those peeps, the advice I can offer is : Stop them before they start. When my mom starts harping on the negative, I put a stop to it: Change the subject, say I've got to do something, find an out. If they want to live turmoil filled lives, that's their perogative but, I won't let it affect mine! BY GOLIE!

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I know you're right and now I'm not drinking I feel stronger. It may be cruel but I've started to make my excuses when it comes to spending time with negative people. I feel like I'm "culling" my friends but...not the genuine ones, not the ones where there's give and take on both sides. I know it will benefit me in the long run as I have came close to shutting down recently for feeling so drained and overwhelmed. To me it's just a matter of deciding I'm worth more and learning to be assertive...but I am getting there thanks to all the advice and support given here at pc.

Thank You for your support and advice.

Thanks to everybody who's helped me in this forum with this problem.