[Christina86]

I got my one month chip tonight.

I'm only 28 days in, but I'll be too busy to find a meeting on Wednesday.

So I got the chip tonight.

I dunno. I didn't want to be there tonight (many different things) ... but I went anyways.

I feel weird. Like I don't belong. I'm not sure about much right now. Not that it really matters. I'm breaking the "rules" of AA. I'm not attending meetings for the next two weeks. I'll either be living with my family, or really freaking busy... I just don't have time.

So I'm not going. I figure I can manage on my own. Not that the meetings aren't great... but I need to find people my own age. Preferably people who won't constantly tell me stuff I already know, or stuff that doesn't sound patronizing and know-it-all(ish). *sigh*

But it was nice to get another chip.

[DePressMe]

Christina, I often felt like you do about meetings. There are many paths to recovery. Finding your own way can be a challenge, but AA is not necessarily right for everybody. Although, if you do decide to go, take what works for you and leave the rest. If some things make sense and help you stay sober then remember that and ignore the rest. I, personally, don't attend AA or NA. It is a tough road to sobriety on your own but it can be done. No matter what, I think it is imperative that you work some type of recovery program. PM me any time. Good luck!

[Lenny]

Congratulations on being clean and sober for one month Chris..

What you have done is not easy..

Look for a young peoples meeting...they have them for just the reasons you shared..

Lenny

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I always have mixed feelings when I pick up chips. I don't know why. Maybe a "fear of success"? It's never quite the thrilling happy experience it seems like it "should" be.

I know that your current meeting is the most convenient for you, but I really do hope you find another group to try too.

You're doing great. keep it up!

[Slippers]

When does school start back up? Isn't there a meeting there? Since YOU know it all , maybe you can help some of their Freshman newbies!



Hugs, Slippers

[Christina86]

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Thanks I'm going to look into other meetings, and we shall see. I may not really have time for meetings once school starts again anyhow, because in all reality - I volunteer an awful lot, and am already going to be seeking counselling... I kinda hope that I can get help in this at the same time as well.

[Christina86]

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I've looked into younger-persons meetings, and unfortunately it seems that I'm either not available for whatever reason (mostly classes) or is in the wrong part of the city, or the meeting place isn't wheelchair accessible (I have a manual). Sigh.

[Christina86]

"Fear of success"?! You hit the nail right on the head! Yeah, I'm afraid of actually doing or accomplishing something, because then I need to reconsider and reevaluate how I see myself and how I treat myself. Also look at how I deserve other people to treat me, and it isn't in a crappy way!! What a mess emotionally though...

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[Christina86]

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Darn! How did you know?! Yeah, there is an oncampus meeting. How did you guess? Bravo, regardless. I'll check it out, but I'm not 100% sure of my class schedule, so I might actually be in class (meeting is 12-1pm once a week)