Magic Mushrooms & Pandoras box

About a year ago, I experimented with Magic Mushrooms, which now can be baught from some shops in London (UK). I have a long History of smoking pot, being from Zimbabwe, it was cheap and I like it, a lot... Anyway, I migrated to London (UK) 5 years ago and was exposed to class A drugs, unfortunately I went through bouts of taking Ecstacy quite a lot, occassionally taking cocaine, but not much. Then came those magic mushrooms...

I would say I have always been (since smoking pot) paranoid to a minor degree. Anyway, I ate the mushrooms and the first couple of experiences were "shallow" but fun, I was amazed at what they did, then on the third time, I found myself spending hours awake at night, analysing everything that had come my way, it was hell!!! Now I am Delusional and most things said to me become part of my conspiracies and the turning point was those mushrooms, OK, I had some other adversities going in my life which may have contributed to the 'Tipping Point'.

Was it Mushrooms that gave me this 6th sense that I don't need or want? This unwanted desire to analyse everything that is said to me and judge it as being against me? Or did they just expose something that was there in the waiting?

If this is what they have possibly done to my mind, then I can only imagine what they are doing to youth that can readily and legally buy them! Or is it just a coincidence that I took mushrooms and out came this beast from within me???

One thing it has done, is given me a unfounded insight into the way I think, and one hell of a self-reflection experience. Which may not be so bad, I realise my faults and want to correct them. I just wish I didn't analyse so much...

Finally does anyone out there know how I can turn this analytical demon into an analytical angel??? If possible???

Any opinions will be appreciated...

Cheers, Gary

hmmmmmmmm, Gary, all I know about is peyote...here in the States.....I wish I could help you but don't know anything about the mushrooms you took. someone will surely show up that knows more than I.....pat

Hi Pat,

Peyote cactus is also available here, never done it myself but I beleive the effects are much the same as the mushrooms we have here. The mushrooms are imported from South America... People often comapre the effects to LSD, which I have never taken either, luckily...

I'll be interested in what you have to say about Poyete though...

If anyone out there has had some bad experience like the one I described in my orginal post with LSD or Poyete, then I'd be interested to see whether is was infact hellucingens that sent me over the 'Tipping Point'...

Thanks, Gary

Hey Gary, I have only used Shrooms twice, and my experiences seem to have been more positive than yours. However, I can relate to you about analysing your thoughts and everything around you. The feeling of being on shrooms was so overwhelming to me! Everything that happend I needed an explanation for, and I just wanted a reason why things were there.
Did you experience paranoia? I felt that things were happening against me, and because of me...
I can't really tell you why this happens, or if its supposed to happen, but I can say it happened to me too, and for me, the feeling was pretty damn scary.
Do you still find it hard to sleep, or was it just the night after you took them? I know that insomnia is normal after shrooms, and everyone I have spoken to who has taken them has experienced this too.
I hope this may have settled your mind a bit,
take care
Raych xxx

Hi Raych,

Yep, sleeping is still a problem...

I see what you are saying about analysing whilst 'high', I just can't get round the fact that that aspect of the high has not left me, that's why I wonder if it has always been there and just needed the mushrooms to trigger it. Or maybe, it was all so real to me when I was high that it has carried over to normaility, I suppose I should take note of what other people say about realising that it was the mushrooms and to leave it there and not carry it on into normality.

I suppose I have been overwhelmed, not just by the what the mushrooms did, but by what I saw in myself... It scared me! I have so many flaws it's unbeleiveable, and the shrooms just brought it all to the surface, now I am swimming around trying to find some calm waters.

I lost myself, or maybe I was lost before the shrooms, and they pointed out that I have to deal with all these issues that cloud my mind. To be free of the person Ihad become (not my true self) ...

Thanks for the words!!!

hmmm...

Magic drugs. I'm all for experimentation, as long as there is a purpose.
Also, when I did magic drugs (LSD, shrooms, ayuasca, etc.), it was never in the city and always along with really close, reliable friends.

Yeah, I remember thinking I was seeing some religious image in the sky, once, and tripping way out of my head with insights on minor details like colors, sounds and what not.

Honestly, the signals of my depression/anxiety have been here since I was a child, I can tell you that for sure. There is no way that pot or even the "hard" ones have made my mental condition any worse - not that they've made me a better person, either.

Anyways, following the harm reduction philosophy, I've managed to QUIT all my anxiety meds (awuful legal hard drugs). I do take antidepressants, but for anxiety, my med really is marijuana.

I work, I live by myself and I smoke a bit when I come home at night and it helps me relax and unwind.

Being analytical can be very good for you. There's a big difference between thinking deeply and being paranoid, though.

peace :-)