[angel12]

i am so messed up, bills behind, i am back on day 1 again
how can i get through this alone
please

[Asylum Crew]

(((((( angel)))))
your not alone we are here with you
Ella

[Catherine2]

Originally Posted by angel12

i am so messed up, bills behind, i am back on day 1 again
how can i get through this alone
please

angel,
day 1 is better than no day...

don't know about real life, but here you are not alone. Period Make use of the help available to you no matter the source.

day 1 is giving yourself another chance to know a measure of peace. ya got to be willing, though, to sift through all the suggestions and use what works for you...
that said, some of the suggestions are right to the point and are not easy to follow. do them anyway.

Catherine

[madisgram]

me too. you're not alone, we're here for you. just take it a moment at a time if need be. as long as you stay sober/clean the rest will be there to deal with when you're stronger. the flip side is things can get worse if you drink or use....lean on us and stay in touch so we know you are ok or if you need our support.

[kittenkirk]

Originally Posted by angel12

i am so messed up, bills behind, i am back on day 1 again
how can i get through this alone
please

You only have to stay sober for one day!!! at a time.....get through one day and the days will add up. Use whatever tools you can get to stay sober....take the suggestions from your sponsor. You can do it!!! You are not alone. I will pray for you....for the willingness to stay sober. You have to truly want to stay sober...only then will you be able to do so...with the help of your Higher Power and your sponsor and your support group. I love you, hun. Hugs.

[Catherine2]

Angel,
I wanted to check in and ask how you are doing...

Quite honestly, my biggest concern is how you are feeling about yourself. Yes, the addiction is giving you a rotten time right now.

Many times we batter ourselves with so many negative things that it makes it hard to stay sober and clean...jme, but I initially did not believe I was deserving of a better life.
Yeah, I was sick and tired, etc.. But I thought I was such a screwed up person that I was not "good" enough for anything else. I felt like a fake, a hateful and selfish ******, couldn't believe anyone could/should love me--and if they did, they were stupid beyond belief.
So I'd drink/use, feel guilty then do it again to deny the guilt but prove that I was a useless person.

There was no defining point for me as far as what helped me keep at it, one day at a time, relying on other people to carry me because I was a basket case...
However, Like You, there was still that little ember of hope that life could be better, than I wasn't the most terrible person that ever existed.
Others fanned that ember for me until I could do it for myself. Was I needy? Oh Yes! Was I afraid that it wouldn't last? Oh Yes!
Has it lasted? Oh Yes?! By grace I've been clean and sober so far today...I do not add up my 24 hours and strut. Each and every day I am grateful that I don't reach for mind-numbing substances.

Please accept the love and support of people here, and those irl who love you.
Angel, we care. Most of us weaved in and out of the desire to be free of the seduction of float-in-feel-good, and we understand how very difficult it can be.
But we also know what waits very patiently for us to return to it...and the danger it is hiding.

Know that you are loved,
Catherine

[kittenkirk]

Originally Posted by Catherine2

Angel,
I wanted to check in and ask how you are doing...

Quite honestly, my biggest concern is how you are feeling about yourself. Yes, the addiction is giving you a rotten time right now.

Many times we batter ourselves with so many negative things that it makes it hard to stay sober and clean...jme, but I initially did not believe I was deserving of a better life.
Yeah, I was sick and tired, etc.. But I thought I was such a screwed up person that I was not "good" enough for anything else. I felt like a fake, a hateful and selfish ******, couldn't believe anyone could/should love me--and if they did, they were stupid beyond belief.
So I'd drink/use, feel guilty then do it again to deny the guilt but prove that I was a useless person.

There was no defining point for me as far as what helped me keep at it, one day at a time, relying on other people to carry me because I was a basket case...
However, Like You, there was still that little ember of hope that life could be better, than I wasn't the most terrible person that ever existed.
Others fanned that ember for me until I could do it for myself. Was I needy? Oh Yes! Was I afraid that it wouldn't last? Oh Yes!
Has it lasted? Oh Yes?! By grace I've been clean and sober so far today...I do not add up my 24 hours and strut. Each and every day I am grateful that I don't reach for mind-numbing substances.

Please accept the love and support of people here, and those irl who love you.
Angel, we care. Most of us weaved in and out of the desire to be free of the seduction of float-in-feel-good, and we understand how very difficult it can be.
But we also know what waits very patiently for us to return to it...and the danger it is hiding.

Know that you are loved,
Catherine

Wow...Catherine you are awesome!!!! You are truly a Power of Example...for me. I hope that I re-read your post...you definatly have a good message of hope...and the benefits with the Grace of God to stay sober...One Day At A Time...