extreemly violent

i am feeling super evil. like evil is i can feel. i have very high anxiety it has been in submission for a while but for the last3 weeks i don't know if i will actually hurt myself. i don't want to die. i don't want to kill anyone i just want to screw stuff up really bad. like blow somethign up. i am scared. what of i hurt mysaelf. i don't like pain. i feel it day in and day out tha ti don't want anymore. i feel like i could go watcxh some slut dance her way to a firey hell...cause i am not that stupid but why is the fact that she is the one exploiting herself and the fact thet she dooez n't care that she is nake d make me feel better becsue i don't want to do that to myself. is her lack of self repserct for hwer self make me an evil jerk.. i fweel like blowiong somthing up

hi, do you have a therapist that you could call to talk to? it worries me that you're feeling like hurting yourself or someone else. are you on any medication? please take care of yourself. pat