My dreams are getting more violent

<font color="purple">Nightmares? No. More violent dreams? Yes. I say they aren't nightmare because I'm never scared, it's funny, I don't think that I've had a nightmare since I was a little kid, and I always used to get nighmare over little, bizzare things (like this one thing on the radio that they played, it was supposed to be a comedy but the guys voice was so...monotone and weird, it's keep me awake at night because it kept playing through my head).

In any case, for example-

Last night I had a pretty bizzare dream, it was kind of like...1/3 real life, 1/3 video game, and 1/3 board game. There was some sort of psycopathic killer who was trying to kill my friends and I, we traveld along ways, in places that I can only describe as like a board game, sometimes on a buss, sometimes on foot. One of the people with us stepped on a landmine and had his limbs blown off. I blamed myself for the incident because "I was being cowardly and standing in the middle of the line so I wouldn't get hit, if I was at the front of the line then he'd be okay" crying and everything. Meanwhile, we are worried about the killer finding us. This guy, even though he lost both his arms and legs, he didn't seem too upset...a little weired out but... yeah, another quote "When the blast happened, I was knocked out for a little bit, I tried moving my fingers and toes, and then realised that I couldn't.." It was a very bizzare, violent, (slightly disturbing) but not a very scary dream.

The past three dreams that I've had, there was a psycopath, and 2/3 of them were killers. I kinda miss my old dreams, they were filled with at least a little bit of love and hope...they were never really dark like my past dreams have been...</font>


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((((((kaika))))))))

I dont know what to say but i'm sorry your having these horrible dreams. Your not alone. I myself have very vivid dreams with violence, death, you name it, its in the dream. So far i havent figured out how to get rid them. I know they come from the ptsd i got. I notice that some meds i've been on make them worse too.

I hope those dreams your having stop soon and your able to get some restful sleep.

Getting desperate to get through to yourself and still "unimpressed"? What would it take?

You are all the characters in your dreams, since they're your dreams; including the guy who lost "both his arms and legs, he didn't seem too upset. . .a little weirded out".

You have to let some of the anxiety out, tell your T how anxious you are, allow yourself to be anxious?

I'd say that or the opposite. I use to have bizarre dreams so I could function each day relatively normally :-) It all has to come out somewhere, we can't hold it in.

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Getting desperate to get through to yourself and still "unimpressed"? What would it take?

You are all the characters in your dreams, since they're your dreams; including the guy who lost "both his arms and legs, he didn't seem too upset. . .a little weirded out".

You have to let some of the anxiety out, tell your T how anxious you are, allow yourself to be anxious?

I'd say that or the opposite. I use to have bizarre dreams so I could function each day relatively normally :-) It all has to come out somewhere, we can't hold it in.

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<font color="purple"> I think you hit the nail on the head on that one. I know some where deep down inside that I do have some issues, but at the same time, there is that doubt that I don't really have anything wrong, and that I'm just making this stuff up to get attention because I'm selfish. It's really hard to break that doubt that I'm just being selfish because just about every day I'm being told that I am self-centered, indirectly or not, by my older brother. (and once my dad was really mad at me on new years because I wouldn't let anybody use my computer, and he said something along the lines of "I can't believe I raised you to be so selfish")

I wish I could talk to my T, but I don't have one. We made plans about getting me one since about... late november, when I told my mom that I was depressed...but I think they just forgot about it.</font>

"Selfish" = self - ish. Is being self - ish bad? Why?

Just forgot about it like it might go away? I'd use some of my selfishness and remind them :-) That could be some of the dream, the frustration and your head saying, "What do I have to do around here to get heard, tear off arms and legs?"

We're all selfish when we're young, we have to be. That's our job; we have to survive and don't have our own ways and means so must work hard to get them from our caretakers. Look at a nest of baby birds erupt when the mother comes home with the goods! If you're younger, you have to try a bit harder (and, in the human family often get the "baby" status instead of the "runt" status), have to talk louder to get heard, etc. I have 3 older brothers. The youngest of the three when he was little was known as "Me too!" because he was always trying to follow his older brothers :-) It ain't easy being young.