Horrible Day

I had a horrible day today. My daughter had to go into the hospital for a scope which meant I had to go into an environment that I REALLY hate. To me a hospital is really gross and because she was dealing with a urine issue I had to help her in the bathroom which I dont even use public restrooms so my anxiety level was so high I felt I had lost my mind. I had to go with my ex-husband and having to spend time with him only reminded me why we are divorced. I have school work due on Friday that I have yet to finish it (I am so wired now I cant focus). Lastly I have to get my medical forms in or I will not have my medical insurance through the state and I am so stressed over every detail in those forms that I have drove myself CrAzY!!!! It took me 2 1/2 hours to find all the stuff I needed to fill out the forms and I ended up crying before I finished. I know alot of it has to do with all the stress of the day and all I have to do before the end of the week. I have a full day tomorrow and I dont know how I am going to get all my school work done. I push myself each term because I feel that I can not get anything other then A's. I dropped out of high school not knowing I had dyslexia as well as running away from an abusive childhood home. Now is my chance to show I can make something of myself and maybe get off of SSDI if I can get myself "well". I dont want to fail. I know I see things in black in white at times and I am very obessive about my grades but I just want to do my very best because I KNOW I can do this. Just like the lists I make for myself to do each day... I feel as if I dont ever get enough done. I know I am just really tired tonight. I havent gotten much sleep the past few nights. Maybe I will try to get to bed a bit earlier tonight and hopefully I will feel less anxiety tomorrow. Nice to just vent. Thank you.

~Dawn

Even though your day wasn't too good, you seem to be very positive...that is great! I also hope you have less anxiety tomorrow.

Welcome and it's nice to meet another newbie,

Missi

Thank you so much for the replies and welcomes. Means so much to me.

Today was a bit better. It is true that you must take one day at a time. When I have days like yesterday I try to focus moment to moment.

I have yet to finish all of my school work, however I did get everything that is due for Friday done. Now all I have left to finish is what is due before Monday.

Oh, I did get my state insurance paperwork done and turned in. I talked to a worker as well. My old worker that I have had since I was 18 has retired and so far they have already given me to two different workers. Today I finally received the name of the new worker I am assigned to. (I dont deal with change well at all) Anyway, I told her that I have a hard time with paperwork and she said that they would be happy to help me. That the next time my review is due they will just have me come in and help me fill it out. So hey, some good came out of today. I also get to sleep in tomorrow and not much can beat that.

~Dawn

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Sounds like things are coming together. Glad you had a better day. . Take care and Much love.


Jen