So full of anxiety right now...it is BAD

My anxiety is really bad right now. I seen my T today and we talked about something that were hard to talk about and I wonder what he thinks of me now at this moment for what we talked about.....
then I come home and get on my computer and find out my one daughter found this site on my recents sites on my pull down bar and she nows knows my screen name here and she read my profile but the things that matters most is she read all the post that I posted....even the ones about the transference I have for my T.....UGH this really bothers me BIG time and has me all worked up and I do not know what to do..... I want to call my T and talk to him about this and I know he would want me to call but it is late and he does not take calls after 11pm so I just have to take some xanax and try to sleep some...might call him tomorrow...
Does anyone elses family know you come to this site and if so do they read your posts? I am scared I thought I was safe here and noone would find out how I am truly feeling but you all and my T and now that is different and I am having a rough time with it....UGH


ps is there anyway I can be on this site and not have her know my name or find me....I wanted a place that was all mine and not have to worry about writing how I feel and now this UGH

Hi Hope,

I know about that 'full' of anxiety feeling. It comes into us just like anger does, and it's hard to let it out again.

Sorry to hear you're feeling like this, and that your PC life is compromised. I wouldn't be ashamed of anything I had written here, but I don't think everyone would understand it.

This might be a time to try to slow down, and cope directly with your symptoms. I usually switch off and fall back on my strategies when things are really tough.

It's not our fault that we are ill.

Peaceful thoughts, M

Hope, i am so sorry that you're feeling so anxious now. i am sorry that your daughter read your posts. i think that you can change your posting name. you could ask the administration. hang in there, pat

Hi Hope, sounds like you had a pretty bad day yesterday. Yes, the admins can change your name somewhat, but if you stay logged in on your home computer there are a number of ways that anyone can come back and see what you are posting.

That being said, my husband knows I come here. He has his own account that I don't fiddle with. He doesn't use mine. Most of the time, if I post something he will come and read it. For us, it has been a good thing. It's helped me tell him things that I can't verbally tell him.

You need to do what is best for you. I agree that discussing not only your posts but the breach of trust that occured with your daughter is a good thing. She needs to understand that a personal boundary was violated. I would equate it to you searching her room and reading her diary as a teenager.

I hope things settle down. Keep us informed.