[AloneInBoulder]

I have battled depression and anxiety most of my life. Lately my anxiety is off the charts.

I read the article about how money doesn't make you happy. I think that's crap. I think that if you don't have to worry about basic necessaties or whatever I spelled there, then you could focus on being a better person and trying to make yourself happy.

I can't focus on anything because I am so poor I can't even dig myself out of the stupid hole I'm in.

I think it's utter crap that people say that money can't buy you happiness. Perhaps some people. But I can say that I know I would be a LOT happier if I didn't have to constanstly worry about the bills, and debt. I want to die.

[sundog]

Hi AloneInBoulder. Welcome! I'm really sorry you're struggling. I have big anxiety issues too so I know just how bad that can get.

I agree with you that being broke is a huge source of stress, misery and hardship. But I know there are plenty of rich people who are screwed up, depressed and suicidal too. I would still always choose to have money though and I agree with you that it makes life a lot easier. It gives you freedom in a lot of ways. And it gives you options and security. This is worth so much.

I'm really sorry you're stressing over financial stuff. I hope it helps a bit to talk about your issues here and that we can offer you some support

[madisgram]

welcome boulder! i think what you say may have a ring of truth in it. the lack of financial security can produce enomous stress. it makes it difficult to focus on anything else when one lacks food and shelter.

but happiness also comes in degrees. money alone cannot assure happiness. putting that in perspective may help. but i sure understand your plight and why you're struggling dealing with your situation.

one never knows when things may improve. death does not actually fix the problem. it is a void of nothingness. sticking around may offer a change in your life. one never knows when that may happen, but invaribly bad happens, good happens...it's just the way life is. hang on for dear life.

[pattyapoian]

Hi Boulder! I am new here, but I am familiar with the feeling of anxiety and especially when you are dealing with issues of basic survival. I have myself been up/down and everywhere in between on the financial scale so I can surely relate. I would say that when I look back to the times of scarcity I always can be grateful for getting through and then I realize I ALWAYS MAKE IT. No matter how horrible a situation has been miraculously I have made it through. My point is that you will too! I agree with madisgram, HANG ON FOR DEAR LIFE, and we are here for you

[kittychanel]

Without life, there is not hope. Alone, I agree with you. Happiness includes shelter, food, and dareIsay even entertainment? That is the least any human or animal should have in this world. And there are so many without it, it is heartbreaking. No one should have to worry about basic necessities. I know how stressful it can be to worry about paying the bills. I am living on my own now after four years, and it is a big adjustment. I thought I would enjoy the solitude without my roommate, but I have been having anxiety and panic over school(because my performance was linked to financial aid) and being able to have the vision of what I want for my life in the next year. I don't think by today's standards I am spoiled. I dont have a car, and I have basic cable and internet. Besides that, I have no fancy gadgets. I like buying used books from Amazon and watching TV. I am on disability but can't stretch it far enough. Thankfully, the financial aid is helping. I was homeless before and have a fear of that I guess.
I wish you the best in being able to pay for what you need so you can focus on what you WANT. To enjoy and have fun?

[midnight_soul]

[QUOTE][/QUOTE]I think it's utter crap that people say that money can't buy you happiness. Perhaps some people. But I can say that I know I would be a LOT happier if I didn't have to constanstly worry about the bills, and debt. I want to die.

Deat Alone,
I totally agree with you. I understand what you mean that having millions of dollars isn't the key, but just being able to live a "comfortable life style" making it possible for you not to have to worry about all the issues you mentioned. My husband and I are in the same hole as you claim to be in, we have cut back on every thing we can except for a vehicle ( we need to keep it due to my continuous doctor visits) and of course our home. We don't have a lavish home at all, but it is cozy and mostly decorated with flea market stuff that we clean up and puts characture to our place. I LOVE old things and to polish them up etc.

I wish I had advise for you, but I don't. I also suffer from deep dark depression, anxiety not to mention the grueling physical pain. Like you I find myself many times wanting to throw the towel away and just lay down and give in. I can't imagine living this way much longer, it truly is killing me....but it does so very slowly....like torture.

All I have to offer is if you is that some one out there understands completly.

[madisgram]

[quote=midnight_soul;1579031][QUOTE][/QUOTE]I think it's utter crap that people say that money can't buy you happiness. Perhaps some people. But I can say that I know I would be a LOT happier if I didn't have to constanstly worry about the bills, and debt. I want to die."

i'm sorry midnight that you are having a very rough time. and we'd sorely miss you if you weren't here.

[Mustkeepjob32]

Alone,

I too believe that if we each had money to live comfortably, then we would be more armed to deal with life whether we have a propensity to have mental health issues or not.
I suffer fro anxiety and depression and am so in debt that I feel like the scum of the earth. I can't have a bank account, my credit is shot, and the sad thing is I never did anything terribly wrong to deserve this....all I did was suffer from anxiety/depression that I missed work and couldn't pay things.
You are certainly not alone as I look at the replies on your thread. I hope we hear a reply of how you are doing soon.

Z