[Ineedlifewings]

Hello everyone,

Im suffering from panic attacks, anxiety, and insomnia. Its gotten terrible this month. I really really need help. Im worried il become suicidal again, i had gotten over that but everything is building up and i dont know what to do, im losing hope. Im trying to find immediate help but i dont have any money and i feel VERY alone. I cant find anyone who could help me now. IM SCARED. Does anyone know were i could go? I was thinking maybe my local church could lend me a hand at least, something like a long chat with someone there would really help but it seems theyre all tied up and busy. I dont get to see my counselor for another week and im not sure i can make it and unfortunately she cant attend me any sooner. Are there any community help programs that could help me? I am in Chicago, south side of to be exact.

Help me im alone and im scared.....i just need someone to take care of me for a while.

[muncie]

Dear Ineedlifewings, you've come to the right place for help. We all care very much because we can relate to what you're going through. I really don't know much about government help programs but I know there are members here that do. Maybe if you could open up a little about your situation, we could offer some advice. Just know that I care and am willing to help in any way I can. God bless and keep you.

[Ygrec23]

(((((((((Ineedlifewings)))))))))))))

Stick around, hold your breath and you'll find good friends on PC and be able to visit your counselor next week. Take it minute by minute. Do some breathing exercises when it's particularly bad. And keep posting here on PC. Help will arrive. Take care.

[Ryask]

Hey i looked up resources in your area this is a website that lists free crisis hot lines that you can call anonymous if you feel you may do something, it's hard for me to know where exactly the right area is but i think you can call a hotline and ask if there is low cost or no cost help available in your area. If there isn't at least you can speak to a professional for free about how your feeling. Please keep us posted and i hope the page helps a bit.

http://www.suicidehotlines.com/illinois.html

[Ineedlifewings]

Hello everyone,

Your posts and comments mean a lot to me, thank you. I will let you guys know as much as i can about myself and the situation.

Im 19 my name is Carlos and like i mentioned ive been seeing a counselor and for the longest time i have held in some issues that i needed to talk about. When i started treatment with her in November our first two meetings i didnt go as into depth as our last one. The last time we met i revealed to her that i had been a victim of sexual abuse when i was young. It has left with many problems and i feel like the world is going to collapse on me as a result of finally dealing with the aftermath of those events. I didnt reveal all of the details yet because i wasnt brave enough and there wasnt enough time for me to gather the guts. Now i really wish i had done it already so i could have that over with, im really really regretting not doing so. I feel the pressure building up, i need to let her know soon. Im also afraid of whats going to happen after i tell her. However at the same time i am glad i at least let her know that i was in fact abused. She volunteers to help me on her own time which i consider a miracle as it is and i only get to see her once every two weeks, in between meetings i feel very anxious because i want to see her again quickly, and now that im about to reveal this very important thing i feel 10 times as anxious to see her again soon. I have 8 days til i meet with her again and it feels like an eternity. I do have her phone number and email and i do contact her through them, however i cant help but feel scared of being a burden or getting annoying to her, after all she helps me out of her own charity on her own time and does have her counseling job and family. So i try to only call when i have harsh panic attacks or email when i have smaller questions. I know that its probably wrong for me to feel ashamed like that and shes probably willing to help when ever i need it but i just cant shake the feeling out of my head.

Thankfully I have managed to contact someone that i will see tomorrow. Its a huge relief.

However i still cant let go of a preference for my original counselor. I really like her and i can really "work" with her very easily. I also have fear of disappointing her once i reveal and get to actually work on my issue, im not sure if im strong enough. Right now it feels like shes the only person in the whole world that i have and im really clinging on her for life if i disappoint her i have nothing else.


Im sorry if my post is disorganized but I did the best i could.

[Mustkeepjob32]

I'm sorry you're going through all this Carlos. But you have come to the right place. I've known about this site for less than a month but people here are great. Hopefully your posts here can serve as a catharsis for you to get your feelings out. Oh BTW, your post wasn't disorganized at all!

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[sundog]

Hi Carlos! Welcome! It's great you've managed to set up an appointment to speak to someone tomorrow. Well done! I really hope it helps.

Regarding your regular counselor, I wouldn't hesitate to email her about how you're feeling. I'm quite sure you will not be a burden to her in any way. It actually makes her job of helping you easier if she knows as much as possible.

Wishing you all the very best.

[muncie]

I agree with sundog Carlos, the more you reveal to your counselor the sooner the healing will begin. It's when you keep your feelings supressed that they grow stronger and more hurtful. Good luck today.

[muncie]

Hello Carlos, how are you doing? It's been a little while since we heard from you. Are things settling down for you a little. I want to wish you a New Year with hope and resolutions to the problems you are experiencing. It's hard work but worth it, you have your whole life ahead of you.