Scared of even good things

The closer I get to my holidays the scareder
I get.

First we're driving 1400 kilometres to Adelaide to see my younger
son.
So the driving part is hairy.
Then he comes back with us.Then my son and I go on
an Island holiday.
With all the recent disasters around the globe I am scared of that.
fears; disasters ...being attacked... drowning...air crash...getting
malaria...all my nightmares about holidays happenning...etc so on
and so forth...

Im not going to let it stop me going.I have to face it all.
And a giant fear is that I wont enjoy it...

well when I come back (going end of April till nearly end of May)
I will haave to read this and see what fears happenned or not...
hugs for me(((hugs and pats)))...jjulia

Many hugs to you julia!!!! I can definitely relate to these fears. Like you, I also feel anxious about good things sometimes. It's the change part that makes me nervous. The fact that it's something different from my usual routine.

I think it's GREAT that you are going on holiday even though you are anxious. I really wish I had pushed myself more to keep on doing certain things. Instead I made the mistake of avoiding things and I've really created a big problem for myself by doing that. You're 100% doing the right thing!!!!!!!!!! I really hope you have a wonderful vacation!!!!!! ((((((((((julia))))))))))))))

Julias, I'm glad to hear you're going anyway. Sometimes when I do that, muscle through something that's freaking me out, it turns out ok and I'm glad I did it. I hope that's the case for you and that you have a wonderful trip.

Cyran0

I used to be scared to fly....probably still am..its just I have not flown for a while. I think we are scared of the unknown. We are safe in our bubble but when we have to venture out its scary......but then when you do get out its o.k....its the getting out part that sucks!!!!!! "Courage is being afraid and doing it anyway"...I like that one....
You know though when you do something that is scary and you succeed it feels very good!!!

Sundog Cyrano Miss Belle thanks for the encouragement
its getting so im losing my appetite....ten days to go....
hope i havent made anyone worry about me....jjulia......

Thanks for checking in (((((((((julia))))))))))) I really know how you feel. I remember back when I used to be able to fly, I would start getting sooooooooo scared weeks before the actual flight. Ugh. I hope the next ten days go by quickly so you can get started on your trip. And I really hope that, once you have got started, it will feel easier.

Hugs to you

I hope you can find ways to keep your mind off it for the next week.

And don't worry about worrying anyone. We're here to give and get help just like you.

Cyran0

Thank you Sundog ,Cyrano.

It feels like catastrophies are starting to happen.
my son who is coming to Vanuatu with me
says the hospital just told him he has Parkinsons.
He is 24 years old and has schizophrenia....ugghhh.
I hope its not true. the ugghhh just means i cant believe it
can happen to him at 24 years old. I need to buy that book
about Michael J Fox....
do these things never end????!!!!
Hope Im not catastrophising....but Im suddenly on edge
and agitated again like before my eldest son died last year.
(((((((((((((hugs for joey/julia)))))))))) sorry have to hug
myself. My husband said no wonder he cant think properly.
(my husband doesnt believe in mental illness.
hugs to anyone else out there going through stuff(((((hugs and pats))))

oh wow ((((((((((Julia)))))))))))) Many, many hugs to you. I'm so very sorry for all the pain and heartache you are going through. And for the terrible loss of your eldest son last year and now this new healthscare with your other son. That is a huge load to have to bear. I'm so sorry. Please keep in touch with us and let us know how you are doing. Thinking of you and sending much love

Juliaspavlov, you've been through so much. I'm so sorry about all of it. You have every right to feel agitated about things like that. But you've also gotten through so much already, you're clearly very strong, and it's worth remembering you have that strength.

Please keep coming back and let us know how you're doing. I hope coming here and talking is helping a little. (((((Juliaspavlov)))))

Cyran0

thanks again sundog and cyrano....
Im not sure whats going on with him
because he sent a msg early morning hours
saying I hope you dont see them murdering me....
I drive there next Thursday...its either his schizophrenia
or 2 seperate issues.Im calmer now....
only dreading the 1500km drive with a sore hip...
it would be good if we could go back in the past
but not sure what to change and when?
My hubby is away right now with 3 of our dogs
so i can pay extra attention to the remaining 2 dogs and 2 cats.
(had dejavu then) never mind.
yes definitely calmer for now......((((hugs))))...jjulia

Really glad you're feeling calmer today (((((((((((julia))))))))))) And that your hubby is taking care of 3 of your doggies. One of the other reasons I hate traveling is because I get extremely sad and anxious if I ever have to leave my dogs.
Many hugs to you

(((((Juliaspavlov)))))

I havent been able to write here for a bit
because my holiday did go wrong but not the catastrophe i expected
my youngest son ended up in high security psych ward
he is only now been allowed home.My mind is up and down about the whole
thing.Him missing his long looking forward to holiday...his setback
Ive even bought a copy of 'a beautiful mind' to watch again.
Guilt over going to Thailand instead and enjoying myself.
I had several once in a lifetime experiences in Chiang Rai Thailand
slipping down the muddy hillsides in Mae Salong is one and seeing the blue
pigs there.And meeting some incredible people there who begged me to come back.
Seeing my daughter teaching high school english too i feel so happy she is
my daughter....and its hard for me to feel about females..(hard to explain..except
at 4 years old i told my mother i hated her and she slapped my face for it)
anyway raved on a bit so i better finish for now before i get carried away again.
Love and hugs to the caring people here at psychcentral...jjulia.