[slinks]

I am a 40 year old woman but I feel about 8 years old right now. My mom is in ICU for some unknown as yet infection that was closing her throat off. She is on a respiraror now and will be doing tests later this morning to determine how serious the infection is.
My dad has had major heart problems and many other serious health problems since I was about 12 years old, so my mom and I are kinda old hat at dealing with that, but having her be the one seriously sick is new to my dad and me, and we are both kinda lost right now.
My anxiety ia through to roof right now.

[Sabrina]

That must be extremely worrying to you. I am sorry you are so anxious and hope that your Mom receives the help she needs and begins to heal.

[slinks]

Thanks....going to try to get a little bit of sleep, or at least rest. my eyes are like sandpaper right now. just hope i can keep from crying more.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Hang in there...I hope your mom recovers soon!

[slinks]

She is sedated this morning, but they were looking for an abscess, but didn't find one and have called in specialist to consult. Now just waiting to see if they can keep fever down and blood pressure up.

Still just scared, because I am so out of my comfort zone with my mom being the patient instead of my dad.

I kinda freaked out on my husband during the night. I woke him up by lightly hitting him on the back and asking rather loudly, "if he hated me this much, that he could just not care what was wrong.... he hadn't responded to my sobs that were shaking the bed and I had been crying for almost two hours.

I then sort of did what I was supposed to and divert my attention to something else to not focus on the thing causing me the anxiety.......PROBLEM... I started talking about our relationship which is usually th ething that has me anxious... and it also pushes my hubby away, but I kept appologizing and trying to tell him I didn't mean to be talking about it... that I am trying to leave him alone and give him his space....AND ON AND ON for an hour...

[muncie]

SLfromKS, "one day at a time". I know how distressing a serious illness in the family can be. It sounds as if your mother has been healthy in the past, so she has that going for her, and the hospital is the best place for her right now. Making sure your Dad is okay will divert some of your worry off Mom. I hope you don't have to wait too much longer to find out your Mom is going to be okay.

[Ambrosa]

I hope things start getting better for your mum soon

[listeningone]

I have been there. I am 42 and my mother fell and broke her hip last spring. My mom is my best friend so having her in the hospital for an extended amount of time was so difficult. My mom and I had long talks and I allowed her to tell me about how she was feelling about what was going on. It made me feel useful and helping her actually made my anxiety less. It is so hard.

[Cyran0]

SL, what's going on with your mom would be stressful for anybody. For people like us it can be crippling. You have to give yourself a little room to be emotionally out of control right now because it sounds like there's just too much there to manage. Give yourself a break, ok? Don't worry about how your emotions are effecting others right now, just be gentle with yourself and try to get through them.

I hope your mom is doing better and that you are too.

Cyran0

[sundog]

I'm so sorry for your pain (((((((((((SL)))))))))))))) I can relate to a lot of this. My heart goes out to you and I really hope your Mom will be ok. Thinking of you and sending love and hugs

[Sabrina]

How is your Mom today? How are you today? I thought about you and wanted you to know that.

[lachrymose]

Hope things are looking up for your mom. Hang in there...sending good vibes your way!

[thea_kronborg]

Yes, I wanted to check in also. These things are scary. I'm thinking of you, hope we'll hear from you soon. One day at a time. One minute at a time if necessary.

[slinks]

Thank you all so much. I was away from a computer and no cell phone signal most of the day, so hard to check in. She a little better and they finally know more about what is wrong, so hopefully now the new antibiotics will help her much quicker. She did do about half of her own breathing today for several hours, then they turned respirator back up to do most of the work again and let her rest up. She has a procedure scheduled in the morning and they are hoping ahe will be well enough to breath on her own with out the tube in her throat... I hope so to, because it terrifies me inside when she is unconsious and starts to cough and you can only see it, not hear it. It seems so unreal that all this is really happening.

Again..THANK YOU...To all of you. It is so nice to have people I have never met, care so much. :~D

[sundog]

So glad your Mom is doing a little better today (((((((((((((((SL))))))))))))))) I really hope the anti-biotics help fast and that the procedure tomorrow is successful. Hugs to you

[Sabrina]

Glad to hear your Mom is doing a little better. I will continue to check in. In the mean time, be kind and gentle with yourself during this scary time.

[muncie]

SL, sounds like your Mom has turned a corner now. The right diagnosis is half the battle. Hang in there for a little while longer, and before long she will on her way to good health again. So happy for you and family.

[slinks]

She is doing much better. They just tooj the breathinb tube out and she has talked to us and I feel so much relief.... Thank you all again for being here for me and for all the "UP LIFTING" you provided for my family.

[Ambrosa]

I'm so glad your mum is doing much better SL

[Furigana]

My toughts are with you and your mum, hope she will get well soom

[Cyran0]

SL, I'm thinking of you and your mom and the rest of your family. This would be a hard time for anyone. I'm glad your mom is doing better.

((((SL))))

Cyran0