[Kiba]

I don't know where to go for help. -.-; I'm 16 years old, I'll be 17 in January.

It seems like my fear of things are growing.

I did some search, thinking I was 'paranoid', but nothing actually seemed to fit me.

I've got some stuff to admit. -.- I wouldn't say this stuff if I didn't hope I could find help. Someone please please help.

I can't, to start with, ever watch scary movies. I cover my eyes the entire time. I'm scared of it making me more afraid then I already am. I get scared by just the sounds, though, and they haunt me for ages.. jeez..

Basically, I can't be alone anywhere. Whenever I'm alone, even if someone is right in the next room asleep, I'm very very scared. I won't leave the room, I'll sit very still and try to distract myself with TV.. but every little noise makes me tense up.

I can't sleep with all the lights off, sometimes it takes me hours to fall asleep at all.

I can't even take showers without being scared. I constantly peek around the curtains to check for things.

I'm not even really scared.. of burglars and such.. well, that scares me too, but I always think.. (this is so embarassing) ghosts are in my house.

I have horrible nightmares, very often, very vivid about such supernatural things. Always very bloody, to be a small bit more specific.

I looked through phobias, and I wouldn't know what to call it... even when I insist to myself that ghost aren't real, I'm still scared of.. something... er, every noise makes me think someone is there..

It's all really confusing, and being a 16 year old with no job.. well, I'd be interested to see a psychiatrist, but I just can't afford anything like that. If I could even know this was a common problem, or if it was a medical condition, or anything...

Help?

Kiba, I am not certain that I can help you. But I can listen. You seem to be a very mature 16 year old and that is definitely in your favor. Have you taken the quizzes that we have here on PC? Maybe those would help. I wish I could do more. xoxox pat

[LMo]

Hi Kiba -- I'm not going to say that it's "just a phase", BUT... I went through an identical period like that from ages 11-14 or so. I was really unhappy with my life at the time, but I don't know why it manifested itself in such extreme ways.

It became compounded after my mother died (I had just turned 15) and my dad's job took him out of town Monday-Friday, so it was just me and my little brother in a big house on a quiet suburban street, where you couldn't see from one house to the next because of trees, etc.

I did eventually grow out of it (I guess... not sure why I don't have that problem now). But, my nightmares always take place at my parents' house and some of them involve the supernatural stuff. I also get really scared like that if I am alone in my house now and stay up too late -- I kinda hallucinate.

Do you spend much time alone at your house? Are your parents home?

If you are not sleeping much, I would say that exhaustion probably is playing a big part in your imagery.

I think it's worth a talk with your regular doctor, even if you can't afford a psychiatrist. Your regular doctor can prescribe anti-anxiety or sleeping meds, if that's what you need.

Good luck, Kiba... I'm glad you're doing what you can to get help for this.

[Kiba]

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fayerody said:
Kiba, I am not certain that I can help you. But I can listen. You seem to be a very mature 16 year old and that is definitely in your favor. Have you taken the quizzes that we have here on PC? Maybe those would help. I wish I could do more. xoxox pat

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Thank you very much, you're very kind. I was sort of upset, and reading your post calmed me down quite a bit. ^^

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LMo said:
Hi Kiba -- I'm not going to say that it's "just a phase"

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Normally, I wouldn't get any help from "just a phase" replies, but you've made me feel a lot more confident that I can get past this. Thank you SOO much for sharing.