Anxiety detectives

Sometimes I feel like my anxiety is chasing me. It's like there is something hidden deep in my mind that is trying to force itself to the surface. Something I can't face and I'm trying to hide from it or keep it hidden from myself. The closer it gets to the surface, the more severe the anxiety becomes. It seems like it's something that would shatter me into thousands of pieces.
I have no clue that there is any such thing there or what it could possibly be. It's just a theory.

have you been repressing nething that could explain your anxiety?
Just an idea i dnt no

I use to get my hair cut or otherwise adopt a disguise, take different routes to keep "them" from getting me I would feel like you describe, like something was after me.

That's the theory but it's only a theory and I don't know what the "something" could be... but thank you.

I don't have a "them" and I don't feel like something is after me. I just feel like I'm keeping something suppressed or repressed. Maybe it's just the typical "I think I'm losing my mind" feeling that extreme anxiety sometimes causes. Maybe it's just the realization that I can't overcome my problems. Nothing but maybes...
I could use a haircut though.

Thanks for your post. I can relate. My anxiety make me feel like that too.

I'm sorry that you can relate to that
I've read some of your posts. I wish you well

arcangle
i can identify when you say "The closer it gets to the surface, the more severe the anxiety becomes. It seems like it's something that would shatter me into thousands of pieces."

i frequently felt that way, that i would shatter and never be able to piece myself back together again. thank you for bringing that up. i had forgotten that. i havent felt that way in a long time. helps me to see how far i have come. thanks.

My worst anxiety and panic attacks came when I was repressing something. Of course when it was happening I didn't see that. I had a bad marriage with abuse but I kept thinking I could handle it. It of course came out in panic attacks at /in strange places..Of course I did not think it had anything to do with trying to cope with something horrible. I pretended all was o.k. so it came out with major anxiety. I learned eventually "to thine own self be true".......

i know where yr coming from. it becomes so unbearable at times and i dont know what i am going to do next