Fears

I posted this on the depression forum. However, I am curious what you all will think of this. I have developed the rather annoying tendency to make up odd situations such as me commiting myself, my co-workers thinking I am mentally ill and other incidents of me just acting really weird in public. I am curious if any of you do that. I mean I sometimes feel like I am trying to make myself crazy or something. I kind of find the thought interesting except that I tend to get sad, irritable and sometimes even give myself a nice headache. Can any of you think your way into a headache? I have never been able to do that before last month. I still can't seem to see how I am able to do that. I can even do it while deliperately cutting off my thoughts and trying force myself to focus on work or something else.

i'm not sure that i can give myself a headache but i can sure make myself feel down. take care of yourself, xoxxo pat

Hopeful,

I think I know what you mean. Several months back my anxiety was so bad, my mind would not shut off. The thoughts were running through my head faster then I could even identify them. Some where dumb thoughts, others were disturbing and scary thoughts. I remember one morning while I was getting ready for work, my mind would not shut up. I was fixing my hair and the streams of tears where just pouring from my eyes because my head hurt so badly. My mind was so full of thought and no matter what I did, it wouldnt stop. It made me feel as though I was going crazy. I mean really crazy. I sat there and just my back against the bathtub and cried my eyes out.

I know how distressing this can be. For me, my only escape from these thoughts was journaling, talking about them, therapy and medication. Yes, all four of these. Eventually thr thoughts will slow down. My T also gave me several "tricks" to divert my mind onto something else when things like this happen. Try naming 5 things you can see, though and feel. This helps. Keep repeating it. Also, trasferring a small object from one hand to the other also helps because your concentration is on the object and not your thoughts.

I know these things dont always work but they help. Your not weird, your not going crazy. It is just something that people with anxiety have to deal with. Please hang in there and post whenever you need too.

Huggles,


Jen