Fears

I have a question. I sometimes fantasize about what it would be like for everyone at work to think I am mentally ill. Sometimes, I fantasize about what it would be like to be to commit myself to an institution. I am wondering if any of you ever have these strange fantasies. I mean I know that fantasizing about this kind of stuff makes me irritable and sad. Yet, I still do it for some odd ball reason. Do any of you do that? Should this be in the depression forum or anxiety forum? I tend to do some of both so I don't always know which forum does these thoughts most match. I mean why do I play with my own fears like this? Am I just trying to make myself crazy? When I get to talk to my T, I do it less often. But, I haven't got to talk to her in a few weeks and I can't talk to her for awhile because of the Christmas holidays.

I often think I should be in an institution, but I don't know about fantasizing about these things. A lot of people know I'm mentally ill and I don't mind it.

If it's causing problems for you, then I'd suggest trying to think of something different than just going with these fantasies. Sorry I can't be more helpful.

Hopeful,

I tried to respond earlier, but I got bizooted off the internet, when I hit submit.

So here I go again.

Reading between the lines of your post, I get the feeling that what you are calling fantasies are really fears, like your subject says.

Do you think you should call your therapist, and talk it over with her?

I think of fantasies as thoughts that make us happy or feel peaceful.

Jane

For Hopefull,

I really relate to what you wrote- when I am in the psychiatric wing of the hospital, I like the attention and the deep bonding so much I often ask to stay longer. Sometimes I think, that comment that person just made I will leave a suicide note then they will know how ill they made me. I am very into the state of illness, that's why I spend so much time on this board. So little people know just what it's like to be mentally ill I fantasize about them being in my shoes, if only for a day. I want to scream it from the rooftops, I'm ill & you're not it's unfair you will never know or understand. I think with the stigma it is natural for people to want to express their illness in a way that fights stigma and gets the true truth out.