I've gotta get this out...

Hey folks, I’m new here and I feel the spontaneous urge to spill my guts out since I can’t exactly talk about my problems to anyone else so… Let the fun begin. I wake up nearly every morning feeling anxious and spend a majority of my day trying to tell myself that my fears are completely unfounded. I seem to collect fears like some people collect stamps. So far the “fear list” consists of the following: 1. doing something that will defy God. 2. Spreading germs around and subsequently making someone sick (which is ridiculous—I’m perfectly healthy). 3. Running someone over with my car (every time my car hits a pothole I have to check the rearview mirror just to make sure that everything is ok). And 4. Hurting someone (again, this is totally stupid. I would never hurt anyone). Along with others. My hands hurt like heck because they’re all chapped and bleeding from washing them too much. Ugh… This sucks. I made a screening appointment at the health center at my school because this is just getting out of hand; but I haven’t told any of my friends or family that I think I might have a problem. I dunno… I guess I’m scared what people will think of me if I tell them. I don’t want to be treated like some kind of freak. Still, even that would be a small price to pay if I was able to feel even marginally better. Sometimes I just break down and cry because I feel so trapped.

Sorry if this sounds like I’m whining and/or complaining. I just had to get this stuff off my chest.

DH...you are not a freak. I repeat: you are not a freak. Sounds like OCD. It is torturous until you get this under control.

My youngest daughter has OCD,( Obsessive-Compulsive-Disorder) and is in therapy.

She has lost some fair-weather friends. But those that really care about her remain steadfast.

Don't let anything stop you from getting the help you need. You are a young & wonderful human being. You are NOT the OCD. Follow through with the screening. You've made a good start.

I hope you will come back here and share your progress/feelings with us. Take good care

Feel free to PM me anytime. I will try and get back to you as soon as I can.

((((((( HUGS )))))))

Hang in there.... and by all means do seek some counseling and possible medicine for this disorder, for with these two things your life (and mind) can become yours again, but with out them you will have lost - again!

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Welcome to PC....You came to the right place. We are here for you to spill your guts. So don't feel bad, everybody here understands.
I'm sorry your going through a tough time right now. Sounds like an OCD problem. Doesn't make you a freak.
The one thing I noticed is your completely aware of your problems and what needs to be done about them. Alot of people don't have that insight...they go around in life thinking what they are doing is normal.
Don't feel so overwhelmed. You can work through this. Many people live happy healthy lives with OCD. You can as well. As long as your willing to work at it.
I hope you feel better....and keep us posted and let us know how you are doing.
Desirae

OCD is no fun. I have had it for a long time and the truth is that you can't just get over it on your own. you will need help. The sooner you get help the sooner you will be able to start getting better. Hope everything goes ok for you. We are always here for you to talk to if you need..