[Jenn1fer82]

I took everyone’s advice and saw a neurologist today. I was there from 1pm until 4pm. I’m extremely tried. I’m scheduled to have an in office EEG and a week later I’m going to have an EEG home device attached to me for 4 days. The neurologist wanted to take me off of zolft and take lexapor instead. He also replaced my serax with gabapentin. I’m also going to have some blood test done too. He said that I might have partial complex seizures. It could also be that I have a low level of serotonin which can cause the anxiety and black outs. I was given so much information today and I feel so overwhelmed. I’m surprised that I didn’t have one of my episodes in his office. Ever since my horrible week where I had up to 12 episodes I haven’t had anymore since. I’m still having a hard time sleeping through the whole night. One of my concerns is that while I’m having the EEG performed on me, what if during that time I don’t have any episode and they won’t be able to record the effect of it on my body? I’m trying to do all the right things, to be informed, to get all the support I can from friends and family but still I feel there are no concrete answers for me out there. It is so frustrating and scary. I just wish I could feel whole.

[lavendersteph]

jennifer i'm so glad you went to neurologist i hope they find out what it is . hang in there we are all here for you please keep us updated .

much love steph

[FleetingSanity]

"what if during that time I don’t have any episode and they won’t be able to record the effect of it on my body"

{{{{{Jennifer}}}}

You are worrying about something that hasn't even happened yet ...

Try to relax - Just Breath - You've done your part by going to the Doctor's *a very couragous step* , but you can't fret and worry over the what if's because the what ifs are endless and tend to lead us to negative thinking.

You said it yourself - you are overwhelmed and scared. What if you gave yourself credit for being able to go to the Doctors (I couldn't have done it) give yourself credit for being able to identify and articulate how you feel..

When the what ifs come knockin - Don't open the door - Don't let them in - because once we do - we find ourselves playing hostess and entertaining them and they tend to be insatiable and multiply like bunnies.

Sherry