[Estee1]

I just can't do this anymore. Everything is too much. I want to the pressure to go away. One day the people that I love are going to leave me and I can't stand the thought of that happening. I am so tired of fighting the fears, I just want to give in and hide away from it all. Facing up to what I am afraid of is so hard.

Oh, hon.... I feel for you, my friend! Talk to us and let us know how you feel. You're not really alone... but you're alone... hmmm... you know what I mean. We've sort of lost the regular contact we used to have... but you're always in my heart. I'm here if you need me. I love you, my friend!
To feel the sensation of loss is oh so consuming... try to live one day at a time... that's all we can do- really.

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You raise me up- Josh Groban

[Estee1]

Thanks Nina,
I need to go and listen to that song.

[jmo531]

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[Holly07]

I completely understand how you feel. I come from a large family, but unfortunately we are not very close and I do not have a very many friends. When I am going through life's daily challenges, I feel so alone and especially when I have to make some very tuff decisions. That is one reason why I appreciate having an online network of people who share my concerns and can be supportive. I do emphathize with you, however, hang in there and know that you are not alone.

[jacq10]

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I know how scary a feeling it is that the people that you love are going to leave you .. trust me, i've been there, and i've lived through it. But, not everyone is like that, and you just have to have the hope that not all people are going to disappoint you. Not all people will leave you by yourself, you have to have faith that there is some good out there.

You can get through this, you can fight it. Just make sure you focus on the good in your life, how you feel when you are around those you love, and cherish every second of being with them, knowing that you are worth it.

Jacq

[Fuzzybear]

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[LMo]

Estee, you're getting some really good support in here. Maybe it's not the same as in real life, but I hope this makes you feel good that so many people care

[Estee1]

Thanks for your thoughts everyone. I really appreciate them.
It's funny how I am afraid of being alone but then I am too exhausted to spend alot of time with people so I make myself even more alone. Confusing!!!! Yesterday I was so miserable and tired and I had just got to sleep when someone came to my house to visit me but I didn't answer the door. I was scared and I didn't feel that I could carry on any kind of entertainment. I didn't even know who it was. Ah...life is killing me.

(((((((((((Estee)))))))))))) It's all going to be fine.

[darkeyes]

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