[Lavendera]

<font color="purple">I'm just wondering whether I'm alone. And whether this is some kind of an unheard mental illness or just plain laziness?
I frequently cancel appointments and etc at the last moment. Today I was looking forward to volunteering at 6pm, but I called the lady in charge of it, and told her that something came up and I couldn't make it. I hate myself for this. How can I be so inconsiderate?? I've done the same to my dentist, doctor, therapist...
But I'm sure this has to do with my internet addiction.
I have to make myself get out of the house at least 2 hours before the appointment. That way I can clear my head and get used to being outside. It's no use waiting until the last moment and I'm still glued to the computer screen. Then the outside world seems big and scary.

I was just wondering if this makes sense... If anyone understands?</font>

[Rhapsody]

Sounds like the symptoms of a Social Phobia or Anxiety Disorder.... have YOU ever been Dx or placed on medicine for IT?


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Lavendera]

What is Dx?

[Rhapsody]

Dx = Diagnosis(ed).

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Azalysa]

Hi there!

I've had this happen when I plan to meet a friend or go to a church meeting or something that "sounds" like a good idea at the time it's planned, but then on the day I may feel mainly physically tired and not up to going.

Those that know me well are ok with it.

If you see a psychiatrist or therapist, you might want to ask them about it.

[Rapunzel]

I do that, particularly with things that I was really looking forward to doing. I did it more as a young adult/teen than I do now, but I still do. For me it's social events - dances, parties, etc. I think I convince myself that I don't deserve to go, and then I beat myself up over it because I really did want to. Social anxiety & avoidant personality disorder are probably part of it. I think maybe I was also reenacting patterns where my parents didn't like me to go anywhere or do anything or have social contacts, and they would refuse to give me a ride, or lecture me about peers being a bad influence, or something.

Rap

[mymindistoast]

I find that forcing myself outside for awhile helps, too, but I get back into the habit of "hiding" inside for long periods of time and the agoraphobia and anxiety comes back again.

Volunteer work sounds good. As nerve-wracking as it was for me (at a soup kitchen), the experience was positive.

Simple tasks seem undaunting and complicated, sometimes. I'm really fed up with the anxiety. Anxiety of what, I don't know. Just this constant, nagging, distracting feeling that drives me nuts, sometimes.

Being lazy isn't so infuriating, is it? I don't think laziness is your problem, Lavendera.

-Ray