[inkblot]

Something happened once that was very traumatic for me. In this instance I am not talking about abuse. But it still had a major impact on my life. Things have gradually been changing for the better. Tonight I learned that things could change some more. Again, this would be a good thing, but it scares me. I don't know what to think. I don't know if I should have the person making this decision talk to my T or what. I might feel a little better about it as I adjust, I don't know, but I will still be scared. I am just so scared and worried and anxious about this tonight. I don't know if what could happen is a good thing or a what?! I'm sorry to be so vague with you all, but I don't want to get too specific for personal reasons. I normally wouldn't mind sharing this information with all of you, but there are special circumstances from the past that I cautious of in the present. Hope you understand.

[dexter]

hi inkblot

it is hard to think about change when you are scared and because our illness colors the way we see things it makes it very hard to make decisions on things because our judgment may be cloudy.

Do you have any say in this decision? Is "the person making the decision" doing making a decision for your well being, or are they doing something for themselves that impacts you?

Have you talked to your T about it? I can't imagine it would be a bad idea in any case to have them talk to your T just to give them more information on which to base this decision. Of course there could be a lot of factors I haven't considered that may make you reluctant, but I say trust your judgement on that.

Of course I have to also refer to the old cliche "don't anticipate" which is also of course so hard to do, but try to keep it in mind. If you are already "adjusting" yourself mentally expecting the worst then that adds to the anxiety for no productive reason and probably also makes it harder for you to see things clearly. Maybe writing a list of pros and cons about this would help so that you don't end up with your mind racing on just all the possibly negative things?

I don't know. Just keep posting here, I'm sure you can find comfort expressing your feelings and worries here without having to devulge anything private... and we can always give you support for that.

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[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Inkblot}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Just don't forget that you have a very important say in any decision concerning YOU. You have the right to inform yourself completely before you make that decision, even if you think it's for the best. You also have the right to say "no" or "not yet" if you think the "cure" will be worse than the "illness."

Since I don't know what that decision is and who is making it other than you, I have to say that I am not trying to persuade you not to do whatever it is. I'm just saying that you do have a say in what happens, ok?

You're in my thoughts and prayers.



<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>