[xxKaneLovesZoexx]

Hi,

Was wondering if anybody could help me?

From a young age I could never seen myself living past 21 years old. You know when something just doesn't feel like it is going to happen? I am currently 20 years old, just turned 20 infact.

I work as a training nurse in a Psychiatric intensive care unit for people suffering from Psychosis or other illnesses, that isn't the problem I think.

I have had many health scares such as an underlying cancer scare, my health can get bad sometimes with respiratory illnesses such as Bronchitis.

I have had many dreams of dying young, had dreams of locked doors, dreams of dead relatives and friends - I feel like I need peace in life and the best source of peace ironically is to be able to die.

There are sources of people predicting their deaths, could this be one of them?

[CANDC]

Hi Kaneloveszoe, so sorry to hear you are upset by your dreams. I have them myself but decades later I am still alive.

it brings to mind the Mark Twain quote (he had all kinds of people predicting or even reporting his death)

"The reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated." - Mark Twain quotes from BrainyQuote.com.

I don't mean to make light of your anxiety, it is my anxiety that is amusing. I have feared dying young all my life. None of those fears have come true. It was more like fearing to live life and accept whatever happened to me.

So I think you will live longer. You are a trainer for Psychiatric ICU. You may have endured very scary things, but even if we could see the hour of our death, what could we do about it. Start living in the now? Well that is all we can ever do with our lives. So if you will die in a year or 80 years, my advice to me and you and everyone is live in the now.

I am sure you help many people. You may have challenges - dreams express our own fears.

I partly agree, the best source of peace is to ACCEPT dying, without fear or anxiety as part of life. I hope you are better than me, because I am still working on that equanimity.

[wolfgaze]

Originally Posted by xxKaneLovesZoexx

Hi,
I feel like I need peace in life and the best source of peace ironically is to be able to die.

Kane there is another type of "dying" that occurs while you remain physically alive and it yields the 'peace in life' that you are seeking. This pertains to your state of consciousness/awareness and transcending one's identification with the physical (egoic) mind, and thus with the 'physical self'. This is what the expression "dying to oneself" pertains to, and there is another related saying that goes, "He who dies before he dies does not die when he dies". One more that goes, "The secret of life is to die before you die and find that there is no death". (Important Note for Clarity: none of these sayings/quotes are in any way promoting or encouraging physical 'death', but the type of 'psychospiritual death' I was alluding to above) Such an experience is what may be termed in Transpersonal Psychology as an 'ego-death'. It entails elevating and expanding your state of awareness beyond identification with the physical (egoic) mind and its influence - which is the primary source of our suffering (lack of peace). I can't help but feel you may be touching on this experience/process without being aware of it.

You don't have to feel preoccupied with your own perceived mortality. Live every day fully and make the most of your time here. Question, explore, search, seek, contemplate, reflect, and look for ways in which you can positively effect and influence the lives of others.

[wolfgaze]

"It is truly a great cosmic paradox that one of the best teachers in all of life turns out to be death. No person or situation could ever teach you as much as death has to teach you. While someone could tell you that you are not your body, death shows you. While someone could remind you of the insignificance of the things that you cling to, death takes them all away in a second. While people can teach you that men and women of all races are equal and that there is no difference between the rich and the poor, death instantly makes us all the same. So start using every day to let go of that scared part of you that won’t let you live life fully. Since you know you’re going to die, be willing to say what needs to be said and do what needs to be done. Be willing to be fully present without being afraid of what will happen in the next moment. That’s how people live when they face death. You get to do that too, because you are facing death every moment."**- The Untethered Soul (Michael Singer)

i'm so sorry you're scared by these dreams.

while i've not had it the same as you (i don't think i'll live past a certain age), i've had times where i've predicted how, where and when

these just come to me and yes, they can be quite scary

since i posted this yesterday, it's made me think about life- and how it could be possible to actually fail

i think i'm going to start a thread in depression about this (or maybe here)

[wiretwister]

do to religious ideas I was totally convinced I would never live past 33,,saw myself as messiah like,, maybe a early hint of bp, basically gave up any hope of surviving,, well i'm 57 now, never give up, just keep on going one day at a time...

When I was younger I too was convinced I would not live past 21. I went off the rails at 17 as I thought I didnt have much longer to live, and just party party partied. When I didnt die at 21 I fell into a deep depression which had me hospitalised for a number of months. I was in limbo a few years after that, not knowing what to do.

I have predictive dreams and very vivid dreams, that do come true about half the time. I had dreams before 21, that I had hoped were predictive dreams, about my death but it never happened.

I dont know if this is helpful to you, but know you are not alone.

[CosmicRose]

I've had many dreams where I die, but I never considered them "predictions". I can't even count the number of death dreams I've had, and I think they are relatively normal for people to have because it is our brain's way of processing one's own fatality.
For some reason when I was younger I always thought I would live to be really old, like in my 80s. As I've gotten older, sometimes I wonder if I'll live to see my 40s or 50s.
I'm 22 now and I never thought I would die in my 20s or 30s, though, I always assumed I would at least make it to middle aged.
I think my perception of my lifespan has decreased is because I am more acutely aware of things like cancer affecting those in their mid-life stages. I am also more mature and more aware of things like accidents or other diseases.

But no I don't think these dreams you're having are actual predictions. If you and the other poster are depressed about living past a certain age, I think that means you aren't living the life you want to live and you think death is a better alternative. Life can be very hard, but trying to make it better each day is the path we're all on. Death comes soon enough for all of us.

Originally Posted by CosmicRose

I've had many dreams where I die, but I never considered them "predictions". I can't even count the number of death dreams I've had, and I think they are relatively normal for people to have because it is our brain's way of processing one's own fatality.
For some reason when I was younger I always thought I would live to be really old, like in my 80s. As I've gotten older, sometimes I wonder if I'll live to see my 40s or 50s.
I'm 22 now and I never thought I would die in my 20s or 30s, though, I always assumed I would at least make it to middle aged.
I think my perception of my lifespan has decreased is because I am more acutely aware of things like cancer affecting those in their mid-life stages. I am also more mature and more aware of things like accidents or other diseases.

But no I don't think these dreams you're having are actual predictions. If you and the other poster are depressed about living past a certain age, I think that means you aren't living the life you want to live and you think death is a better alternative. Life can be very hard, but trying to make it better each day is the path we're all on. Death comes soon enough for all of us.

and it's such a comforting thought

i think for me it couldn't come sooner

(says the same person who posted the thread about fear of dying)

you have to love the workings of the mind sometimes