[spilledpills]

Hi! I have had severe anxiety and panic with medical phobia my entire life. I also have lots of real medical issues and my anxiety makes it hard for doctors to work on me. I just found out I have a scary degenerative eye disease that could make me go blind. My retina is thinning and at any moment it could tear or detach. I've been so scared that I cant sleep,eat, shower, etc. When I went to the eye doctor he even said my anxiety makes it way too hard to fix it. I've been taking my meds, but that doesnt help. I'm so scared I will be blind! There are a bunch of other factors that make this almost hopeless like not having friends or family to care for me. But I cant relax. My therapist is mad at me because I havent been able to see her due to the appointments i have. She doesnt even believe me...she said my "SAID" appointments. I'm so alone and so so scared...Anyone help me? I went to a psych ward at ER for 12 hours and i felt better talking with someone but that was also traumatic.

[Swaggyfishsticks]

Originally Posted by spilledpills

Hi! I have had severe anxiety and panic with medical phobia my entire life. I also have lots of real medical issues and my anxiety makes it hard for doctors to work on me. I just found out I have a scary degenerative eye disease that could make me go blind. My retina is thinning and at any moment it could tear or detach. I've been so scared that I cant sleep,eat, shower, etc. When I went to the eye doctor he even said my anxiety makes it way too hard to fix it. I've been taking my meds, but that doesnt help. I'm so scared I will be blind! There are a bunch of other factors that make this almost hopeless like not having friends or family to care for me. But I cant relax. My therapist is mad at me because I havent been able to see her due to the appointments i have. She doesnt even believe me...she said my "SAID" appointments. I'm so alone and so so scared...Anyone help me? I went to a psych ward at ER for 12 hours and i felt better talking with someone but that was also traumatic.

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[vishee15]

Hi,

Perhaps stop everything you're doing right now and take a vacation to some place far off by yourself. Then shut your mind up and chill. I feel like you need that. It will probably relax you up quite well. And then you should do meditating to help you relax yourself out. Meditation also helps to heal yourself which means that you will be fine in all aspects.

You will win.
Peace.

[Frankbtl]

Hi spilledpills, firstly welcome to PC!!!
And..........I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time
And the meds not working.......well maybe they may (kind of??) under "ordinary" circumstances, but you're having A LOT thrown at you right now, aren't you??!!
And issues that may make someone who doesn't suffer from anxiety, very anxious!!
So I'd definitely say to have them reviewed to start with.
And with the eye condition.........do you think it would help doing a bit of research by checking in with people who have suffered with it or, the consequences of it??? Afterall there is a possibility that there will be many more ways of coping with it and the consequences than you're thinking. Anxiety can often have you focused in on the very worst possible scenarios but.........
And naturally it might lead to more people supporting you.
The medical phobia.........some doctors can be very sensitive in these situations, so hoping your doctors might be, could you explain that to them, or even write down some of those feelings for them?? Along with a bit of a plan you'd like them to help them with e.g. limited waiting times, being able to wait in a separate room or outside where someone will call you when it's time for your appointment, minimising "equipment" where they can, having someone else e.g. a nurse or no-one else in the room for your appointment, getting to see the procedures/checks/what they'll be doing before they do those things, having the doctor talk through things step by step, no "white coats".............
And maybe you could have something in place for when they're carrying out anything more invasive e.g. a PRN medication, breathing techniques, even hypnosis?????
I am sorry your therapist seems so insensitive though, especially when you're needing her help even more!!! Maybe you want to show her your appointment cards/letters to show that you've had appoinments to attend, maybe you want to tell her how her "attitude"/accusations are affecting you, maybe you need to get a new T???
But it's good that you've come to PC, there are a lot of really understanding and supportive people on here. So again, welcome!!!

Alison