[tin58]

Long story short: I was driven out of my church/religious community because I was an ACOA. I now feel i am being persecuted at my job because one of my bosses is from my old religious community. They have become extremely critical of me. Even going through my desk looking for things to pick on me for. I feel like I don't even want to go back. I need to get a new job but I feel like idk how to do it.

At the same time I am starting school up again. Classes start tomorrow.

I feel like a little kid. I feel extremely overwhelmed. I feel like I'm having a slight panic attack. I feel trapped. I feel like im suffocating a little. I feel like I don't know what to do. Like I need to escape my own skin. I'm crying a little but I'm trying to keep calm. Trying to keep it together.

My therapist is on vacation :-( and I feel very alone. I don't have any friends or family to go to for support so I'm reaching out here.

Any thing helpful you can think of?

[Miss Stressed]

That doesn't sound like a healthy environment to be working in. I am sorry your community did that to you, I don't see the logic behind it but either way I am so sorry!

Congrats on starting school up again! Perhaps that will be your path to a new job and community of people who will accept you for who you are and where you come from.

Your description of your feelings reminds me of my own breakdown moments. In these situations, relaxation is priority. Take a bubble bath, read a book, try out a new recipe for yourself, make a hot cup of tea, dig in deep into one of your favorite hobbies. Personally I indulge in some HGTV and Candy Crush. Just focus your thoughts on something else. I still have the feelings when doing these things, but eventually I get distracted long enough to truly relax for a moment in time. May work for you too.

That's my best advice. If you need someone to talk to, there are so many community members here who understand and are there. I wish the best for you during this time!

[autumn15]

Hi Tin,

I am sorry for what you are going through. I am also feeling really overwhelmed and alone lately. So I guess if we are both feeling similar, we are not actually alone after all. It makes me feel a little relieved, maybe you will feel relieved also?

If you need a sounding board for your feelings, you are welcome to vent to me, we might both get something out of it! Send me a private message if you like or whatever you feel comfortable with

[spring2014]

hi tin58 ,
Think Positive . don't overwhelmed yourself. if you feel overwhelmed and anxiety level is high here's my list of coping skills. take it one day at time and one thing at a time.
For High Anxiety
1) physical activity
2) deep breathing
3) mindfulness box
4) guided imagery
5) progressive relaxation exercises
6) diversions
7) counteracting thoughts
a. think positive
8) relaxation exercises
9) journaling
10) mindfulness meditation
11) STOP technique



Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds : Cymbalta 60 mgs at night
Vistaril 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia

[LifeGetsBetter]

Be good to yourself. Stay within your comfort zone until you settle down. Then go and do something physical that you enjoy.

[tin58]

Thanks everyone. I really really appreciate your support. Yesterday I went out and got some cheese and crackers.

Today i feel I am not much better. I feel like I'm in survival mode. I got some OJ this morning because i felt it would comfort me a little. It feels like my body is breaking down.

It's a really bad combo of events, work, school, and therapist vacation. I was bullied horribly in school and was terrified. It's been 10 years sense high school and I'm starting college. But I feel terrified. I know it's silly but it feels like the first day of kindergarten.

I'm just telling myself I just need to get through one day at a time. This weekend I'm going to do Job search. I feel idk what I'm doing but I have to get out. Any support for job search? Honestly I just need to find a simple job.

Man. I really just want to collect my stuff and never come back here to this work. I feel so awful and terrified. I feel nauseous. It feel like my body can't handle this.

I'm going to clean up my things at work and take them home so I can be ready. I feel so stressed.

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[autumn15]

Hey Tin,

Sounds like you are getting your thoughts together, just remember that you need to do whatever is best for you. There is no reason for you to stay at this job if you are being harassed like that. It's really terrible behaviour from those people and I don't understand why people do that (well, it's to do with their own insecurities). You are going to college and taking steps to improve your future and that in itself is a huge accomplishment!

Don't forget how great you are and you deserve to be happy in life. Have faith in yourself that you can get through this rough patch and before you know it, you will be looking back on this time knowing how much you grew because of it. Keep us posted on how you progress with quitting work

[tin58]

Thanks autumn15. I just got home from my first class of college in ten years. It was weird but I'm feeling really good tonight. I still have to deal with the job issue but I'm not feeling panicky like this morning and yesterday. I'm taking a bath and having crackers and cheese and oj. Idk it just feels like their comforting.

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[LifeGetsBetter]

Glad to hear you are working through this. How you have dealt with this situation can be a good reference for the next time you are overwhelmed.