[vintagexsoul]

I don't know if this falls under anxiety? Please move if appropriate.

But I realized today I have an extremely neurotic mind. I'm not upset about this, I just kind of laughed. Really laughed. Because all my thoughts are so ridiculous. Seeing things when nothing is there. Always assuming the worst. Making myself unnecessarily uncomfortable, then probably making others uncomfortable. Coming off as crazy sounding.

I feel, admittedly, like a high functioning crazy person.

What can I do about this? I miss-perceive things all the time. I hear something, and take a different meaning to it. I don't know why I do this, but I'd like to stop. I'm really working on letting things go. I over analyze to the extreme.

When, as Freud said, "Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar."

I think I must be really insecure. But I'm more confident now than I've ever been (what does that say about me haha). I'm becoming okay with myself. I'm okay. I would simply like to...not over analyze and create demons that don't need to exist, or don't exist at all.

[*Laurie*]

I truly understand your post. Maybe it is anxiety. Overthinking? Or...who knows. But the 'neurotic mind' is tiring to live with.

[vintagexsoul]

I have social anxiety pretty severely. And much of my over thinking involves social interactions so I know its related. It is exhausting to live with.

Currently my mind feels liberated. Everything is quiet and stable for the first time in 4 weeks. I actually feel happy and content. And like spreading love to others. There are a lot of people in my life I appreciate and adore. I'd like to devote this freed up mental space to thinking about enjoying my time with them, planning for the future and being creative.

I feel okay for the first time in....weeks. I just...I'm okay. Its the most amazing feeling.

[*Laurie*]

Your post sounds hopeful, and I'm so glad to read it. When you're feeling anxious what helps you most?

[vintagexsoul]

Doing photography, finding the humor in my craziness, organizing and cleaning, positive self-talk. I just started Lexapro to treat it. Hoping it helps. I recently got a book with CBT treatment for social anxiety I'm working on too. I plan to talk to my therapist about it all on Friday to get ideas/tips from him.

I was in a state of hyper, constant anxiety for the past 4 weeks. At one point I was awake for over 30 hours because of it. So believe me...I feel so much better now, after talking to my boss. All the anxiety just melted away. This is the first mental peace I've had in that long.

[*Laurie*]

Great!!!

[vintagexsoul]

My current favorite joke with myself is that I'm a high functioning crazy person.

I got the idea from BBC's Sherlock Holmes, with Sherlock being a "high functioning sociopath".

Thank you for taking the time to talk to me. I appreciate that.

[*Laurie*]

You're so welcome! Take good care

[avlady]

hope you stay positive!!!

I relate very much to your post. I'm glad you're feeling better and hope it lasts forever. Keep finding the humor in things...it will take you far.

[vintagexsoul]

Being in my head is hell for me most of the time. I try to laugh at things instead of getting upset.

[Ronan23]

I had social anxiety to the point that it shaped my career (I'm a writer) so yeah, I get you. Good luck, and I just wanted to drop in and say you're not alone, despite the fact that SA can make you feel like the loneliest person in the world.