[montanakid]

hello folks, i need some help, i have had so called anexiety an depression sense i was 17, now 23.. i take 20mg of lexapro an 50 mgs of lamitcal a day... i just feel out there, weak, hot an cold, sick at times, cant remember nothing, just feel like i got to keep moving an i feel like im going crazy.. is this anexiety?? i feel just wore out, its like i lost all interest in any hobbys i have. i just want to stay in my room in my bed.. my life is great so why am i feeling like this?? growing up was great as a kid.. i have no worrys... im just lost... im hoping these new meds help but can some 1 give me some uplifting words.. thanks folks

[detfan4life]

Hi Montanakid! Welcome to PC!

Anxiety and depression can be terrible to deal with, but you are showing strength by coming here and posting about it. You've also demonstrated strength by getting prescriptions to help, picking them up, taking them, and having hope that they may help.

These feelings can be difficult to sort out, so I want to encourage you to have patience with yourself. That's an incredible gift to give yourself and you won't regret it when it comes to facing your anxiety and depression.

As far as what you're feeling now, I think it could definitely be part of anxiety. It could also be part of depression. And some of your feelings could also be temporary side effects of starting to take meds. Often they'll go away if they are side effects, so that's where patience comes in. If they're part of depression and anxiety, they'll likely go away for a time and may come back, as you might have realized if you've been dealing with this for 6 years. That can cause fear sometimes, so I'd encourage you to accept the fear yet not dwell on it. If you think about it too much, it will burrow into your brain and be harder to get rid of. But at the same time, denying that you have the fear won't help either.

Anxiety is a nasty beast in that it can show up even if your life seems perfect! It doesn't need a reason to torment you. Feeling lost and like you have no interest in things like hobbies is a part of depression that can really hurt too. Keep taking small steps to take care of yourself. If you don't meditate, you may want to check out calm.com or another resource and see if it helps. Even a few minutes a day can reinforce to yourself that you are enough and that you matter to the world.

Do you have people in your life that you can reach out to? If not, remember that being around people when you feel bad can seem impossible, but sometimes it can help if those people are supportive. Come back here and update us on how you're doing. You matter to us and we want to be supportive to you.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Is it possible your meds aren't working anymore? You're describing depression while being on an AD. I would contact pdoc and consider changing meds or increasing your dose.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 300mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN

[xx_tpm-life_xx]

I agree with RxQueen875, but if it's any consolation, my childhood wasn't nessicarily bad, around 10 my grandfather passed and my "father" left my mom and I... I started showing signs of very severe depression and anxiety at 11... Sucidal, and I never wanted to leave.. As of now, I'm 13... My pyshologist is dumb and doesn't think I need medicine... But I'll go through phases where I'm "oka" but other times... I refuse to leave my room... Even go to the bathroom at my grandmothers... It's not always easy.. But it's not impossible to deal with it.. Just know there are people here who dedicate their time to be an open ear and help out, pm if you need too.. Good luck

[montanakid]

meds are new, been on lexapro for little over a month but in yhe new dosage for abiut a week, same with the lamitcal. so im sure there side effects. i hope. today i feel pretty good. a little jittery/shaky an a bit angry lol but feel a bit better then what i did