OCD Traits out of control

This has been a crappy day. I can't sit down or make my head stop. I am manic with my OCD stuff kicking in at the same time. Have you ever swept so much that your sweeper sparked and died? I did not like the organization of the living room so I moved furniture. Well I broke the tv entertainment center stand thing. I have been going and going on only three hours of sleep.

I can relate. Do you have any ideas on what you can do to help yourself slow down and get some sleep?

My OCD is out of control, and I so sympathize and empathize with you. I run out of disinfectant wipes, skin cleaning wipes, paper towels and other products very quickly. No one understands what is going on in our heads, and why we can't just stop.

And when things go wrong, like your breaking the entertainment center, the stress just feels awful. Most of my mistakes mean more washing, which makes me feel like breaking down and also feel defeated, but I have broken and lost things (meaning, they fell on the floor, or something happened that I couldn't keep them anymore), too.

I seriously don't know how to slow down. I am going to try reading the bible tonight. Maybe God will help. What I really need I can't get without hospitalization. My Pdoc will only let me do this with around the clock supervision. Haldol, Ativan, Benedryl along with psyc meds around the clock for about two days. The more I don't sleep the more wired I get.

My husband says I drive him insane. He asked me after throwing paper on the foor purposley What horrible thing is going to happen if you don't pick that up. I was going to hurt him. (Not really) I made it about a minuet and I had to pick it up. I can understand why people don't understand me because I don't even understand me most of the time.

I'm sorry you and your husband are having a hard time with this. It's really tough when people don't realize exactly how hard this is for us, especially when we know it isn't rational but still have to do it. I've been doing a lot better with medication, but I know what you're feeling. And like you, the less sleep I get , the more wired and irrational my brain gets.

I hope you find something that gives you a little rest

(((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

I'm looking into natural treatments, but it's hard, because stuff on nutrition and natural remedies bores the crap out of me. Also, changing my diet is so hard. Even if I didn't have OCD, I need to change it, because it's unhealthy. I have always been skeptical about natural treatments, but now that I don't trust the Western medical treatments, I don't know what else to do. The natural treatments are harder, because with Western med, you just pop a pill.

Also, insurance doesn't cover vitamins and supplements. So, even if it works, how do I keep affording it (my bf is paying for the first ones, but I seriously doubt he'll get all I actually "need").