[nervousnellie]

I am just curious if this happens to anyone else who has OCD....

I sometimes get aggravated at my parents, or my sister...or my husband...who doesn't?? But for me, after the fact..I beat myself up all day for having those aggravated thoughts...almost like I think something bad is going to happen to them because I thought those thoughts. Or I will think "what if that was the last time I saw them..and my last thoughts were of aggravation?".

I love my parents (its usually them that this happens about) more than life itself, and I am sure they get aggravated at me also...but why do I feel like such a horrible person? I should be grateful that I have them and they are who they are (because they are great)..but alot of times I am soo stressed because this happens. Am I going mad??



"This too shall pass"

[kama]

I don't have OCD, but I struggle with a lot of anxiety. I have these thought ALL the time. When I'm feeling anxious I tend to really just want to be alone, and sometimes I end up snapping at the people around me, my parents, sisters and boyfriend. Then I feel horrible that I yelled at them or even asked them to leave me alone for a while. The thought that I have a lot is "what if that is the last time I see them?" I can beat myself up about this for hours. This can be so horrible, right?
Well, it makes me feel a little better that I'm not the only one who does this.

[nervousnellie]

I feel better knowing I am not the only one. Thank you for replying.
I hate feeling that way!! Everyone gets aggravated or wants to be left alone, and we should not beat ourselves up for it. I am not as bad as I use to be, maybe because of the medication, but it is still a huge issue.

Hang in there, we'll get throught it.



"This too shall pass"

[SunshineGold03]

Nervous,
I can TOTALLY relate to what you are feeling. I too have OCD and react the same way you do when I become upset with my loved ones. I ALWAYS feel bad after I get angry and then I worry that if something happens to them it is almost my fault or I would feel horrible if that was the last time I spoke with for instance my mom and I treated her bad. I know exactly what you are feeling trust me. And it can be so incredibly stressful when you feel that way not to mention the feelings of guilt that go along with it! UGH! I hate it!! Anyway, believe me you are not alone.