Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

My anxiety wasn’t bad today. I did take 3 Xanax yesterday. Including one at 8PM. So that might have had something to do with it.

((((Everyone)))) Hugs to everyone who's feeling anxious.

Yesterday I dismissed stomach pains and stomach discomfort as just anxiety and all in my head. I ended up throwing up a lot tonight. I never throw up. Not since January 2013 when I had a stomach bug. That just goes to show that not everything is all in your head, and it’s not that easy to just say everything is anxiety.

I have a hard time sometimes differentiating physical symptoms from anxiety. I had to stop googling side effects from my medications, because I would convince myself I was having them. The side effect for one medication was a sore throat and I actually convinced myself I had one. So I stopped taking it. But when I tried it again a few years later, I had no side effects.

I have a bad habit of dismissing everything as anxiety and then most of the time I don’t give it much thought after that. Then when it turns out that I do have a stomach bug or a cold or something I have to remind myself the whole -not everything is anxiety thing-

I'm sorry! I had a friend who did that to me.

I feel anxious and restless all the time.

I feel like this all the time. I thought I was the only one who feel this way.

Does anyone with social anxiety just dislike talking, especially if it’s more than 1 or 2 people it’s like I just don’t want to talk at all in a group of more than 3 or 4 people.

I took 3 Xanax yesterday and one this afternoon and I still feel awful and my stomach hurts so bad and I can barely eat anything. This is definitely physical and not anxiety. But is it true or just a myth that a lot of stress and anxiety can cause ulcers? Because what I am feeling seems like maybe it’s an ulcer and my stress has been through the roof from all the pressure from work.

In my experience, it is true that anxiety and stress can cause physical ailments. I have stress-induced pancreatitis. I've been tested for every physical cause with no result, it only happens when I'm very stressed or anxious. I'd definitely suggest getting checked out by a doctor. Hugs.

Yeah usually all my test results come out negative. So I don’t even bother going to the doctor anymore. But I haven’t thrown up in years and I can barely eat anything. So I’m wondering if I have something legit going on this time. If I’m not better by the end of the weekend I’ll go in.

Had a mini panic attack for no reason midday and later got random dizziness which I suspect was from anxiety. I took some Xanax and it went away. Feeling okay right now.

That sounds pretty normal for social anxiety.

True and some days I would just prefer to communicate by texting and not talk at all, I’m just weird or something, I don’t know. Was new in school a lot and was really shy and still shy and dislike all the meetings at work when used to be a manager at work and expected to present all the time and be this entertaining speaker and it just wasn’t me. Now in a much better job for an introvert.

Wish I was good at talking and look at other people and they talk to others so easily and crack jokes and don’t think twice about it.

But I have learning disorder, non verbal learning disorder and extremely shy with likely social anxiety, ok was given this diagnosis, but really I’m just shy. Give diagnosis of Avoidance Personality traits, I’m just shy.

I had planned on going to Outback today for lunch. I decided to wait until the week sometime so I can go to The Cheesecake Factory. There is no way I’m going to the mall on the weekend. Especially this weekend. I went to Best Buy because I am looking for a digital food scale. The store was packed and I thought a couple teenage boys gave me a weird look. I am female but I don’t look too much different from a teenage boy, but I just got very uncomfortable. Also there was a ton of security there wearing full security suits with all kinds of stuff. You’d think it was Super Bowl Sunday or something. It was too much for me. So I guess I just have to get use to the crowds. Even during the week is probably going to be too much.

Yes wake me up when the holiday shopping season is over, just kidding, but often I actually hold off on buying some things until after the holidays just to avoid crowds.

I didn't have class today because of the holidays, but I still have some homework to do and get prepared for the finals. The other day I went holiday shopping at night and the crowds didn't bother me.

I had no anxiety at work. I thought it would be really bad, but it wasn’t. Now I’m starting to overthink stuff and think of situations that didn’t even happen and project my feelings onto other people, who probably didn’t even feel that way. So my anxiety is kind of bad right now. And my stomach is hurting now too. I took my Xanax and I’m hoping it will start to work soon.

I just mentioned on another thread the anxiety my upcoming holiday is presenting me. I fear something happening causing delays and missed flights making the journey a nightmare.

Well there is another worry too. The holiday consists of a riverboat cruise. This is now in jeopardy on account of low water levels. I realise whatever changes made to our trip will still be a grand adventure but it will be a disappointment not to make the planned itinerary. Fingers tightly crossed.

If my doctor is actually prescribing me two Xanax a day, then shouldn’t I be taking them? My anxiety is bad and maybe I should be listening to him since he is the doctor. I trust him about 95% and I think he knows what he’s talking about.

Sometimes I want to click the pause button on my life...long enough to calm myself down. When my anxiety is bad like tonight, everything in my life seems heavy and it is difficult to relax.

My pdoc went from prescribing one to two Xanax a day. It has helped me.

I haven't posted a check-in for a while now. That is not to say though that I haven't been dealing with a great deal of stress and anxiety. In fact it has been bad enough at times that I have been under a great deal of duress and distress. I figure it was best to try and avoid it though rather than ruminate and harp on about it.

Well ignoring my triggers certainly has not been the best way to go. For, they don't go away now do they. I have incidentally lost a lot of weight recently and I point to the stress as part of the cause.

Now however is a matter that is sending stress right out of the ballpark and I have been having a hard time recently just managing to carry on. I am not coping well and the worry is now spiralling out of control.

I have mentioned an impending trip that is now merely a week and a half away. It is a European river boat cruise down the Danube River. I should be amazing. The problem though is that I have found out by my own means that low water levels are affecting current sailings. I belong to a forum on these cruises and have read some really upsetting tales of how badly people's cruises have turned out.

So I am worried at how my own will be distrupted.

Particularly worrying is that the cruise line has as of yet not contacted us regarding the situation. Not a bloody word. It is now just over a week away and still no contact. I expected a travel package weeks ago yet not a damn thing. My travel agent is having no luck with getting any information from them either. Usually no news is good news but in this case I truly worry that is the opposite.

My stupid coworker is really immature and likes to scare people. Today I was doing a task and I was zoning out while remembering something anxiety provoking. Then all of a sudden I heard this banshee type yell and she screamed my name. I jumped and she started laughing at how vulnerable I looked. Grow the **** up.

Sometimes I really do want to tell management I have GAD.