Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

I'm feeling okay at the moment. Nothing extreme. In November, last month, I've been dealing with daily bouts of anxiety that go up and down. It sucks. But I still manage to maintain despite my anxiety.

I had an anxiety attack this morning. My stomach stills feels uneasy. I see pdoc tonight, I'm nervous. I have nothing against pdoc but her office triggers my PTSD a bit so it can be hard to go there. But she's a good doctor and I only see her once a month so I keep going.

Been quite anxious today.

Ugh...just angry and frustrated and sore. Trying to calm back down.

Love to everyone on the thread. Sending out big hugs, best wishes and positive vibes.

Doing better. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Hope everyone gets through the holidays with some peace.

I was admitted to a mother and baby unit for postnatal depression and anxiety. My husband has been abusive. I reported him. They have me on medication to help calm me. I can’t go home to him, I’m hoping the domestic abuse workers can help me but everything has been on standstill over Christmas. I’m afraid of how he’ll react when he finds out I reported him and I’m not coming home

I haven't posted here for a while regarding my anxiety. I have been in such a state for weeks; and now, I am in all out fear and stress mode.

My disability assistance is being cut off. The last cheque is for January.

I am struggling to find work. I need an income in January so as to pay my rent for February.

Anxiety growing with each new day. I am feeling less confident and more and more worthless too.

I have to find a job - soon. I received my last disability check today and will need an income with which to pay rent come February.

I knew full well this was a crappy time of year to be looking for one. As of this date I have applied for 26 jobs - and not heard from a single one. This is all very disconcerting and hits my confidence and self-esteem quite hard. What is wrong with me I am asking myself? It is reaching the point that I worry too that I am suffering paranoia and jumping to every negative conclusion that can be thought of.

This is not a situation I have ever been in before. I've normally had a choice of job offers. I am really freaking out.

I am so sorry you are going through such a tough time. I was in this boat for a few months. I had rent pending and needed a paycheck asap so I could pay it on time.

One thing I learned through my job search was that the more jobs you apply for the better your chances are. The job market is very hard nowadays. There was a week where I set a limit to myself - minimum 50 applications a day. It took me a few hours each day but really helped me confidence - because the more I did the more likely I would be to get a response.
After that week, while I was submitting my 50 for the next day, I got a hit from the job that is now my current place.

Just relax. Things will be okay.

I only have 4h left to sleep but I can't stop stressing about tomorrow night. I wish I could just cancel all my plans and run away and hide from the world until like the 2nd week of January.
This time of the year is extremely difficult and it's triggering so many memories that I'm not being able to cope with

I'm really struggling with anxiety and hypervigilance lately... I saw my pdoc last week and she said I could try taking lorazepam again if I see that I'm struggling; but I don't like how it makes me feel. I took it last night and it helped me sleep, but I woke up feeling numb and very tired.
I have meditation class this afternoon but the sole idea of leaving the house and having to interact with people is making me feel more anxious and paralyzed.