Anxiety Daily Check-In point #6

I'm doing better today. I'm still struggling with hypervigilance but at least I managed to get a decent amount of sleep

I just had an anxiety provoking situation on Facebook. Someone who bullied me in high school made an off hand passive aggressive remark. I’m not actually friends with this person but for some reason it showed up on my newsfeed. I knew this person 11 years ago and I have had no contact with her since. This kind of stuff freaks me out badly. That people still think this way after so long.

I went to a doctor's appointment. I'm not usually nervous going to see him, but today my anxiety ramped up for some reason. It didn't interfere with my day, just kind of an annoying distraction. Weird.

Went out for some leisure activities and socializing, got overwhelmed with anxiety.
Returned home to my room, everythings fine again.

I just had a huge chocolate iced coffee and I have to work tomorrow. Of course my anxiety is sky high.

Relief yet again.

For the first time I entered some art work in a gallery show. The opening and reception was last night. Observing people as they stopped and lingered in front of my paintings near made me swoon with relief and delight. Whew. It seems my art was on par with the rest of it. Yay!

Been pretty worthless all day, except maybe to the cat. Listened to 3 meditation thingies, drank tea. Have not accomplished anything, except taking a couple of messages for people who don’t have phones. Need to come up with another plan for dealing with anxiety (I love how they call it “anxiety” - feels like panic to me). I have too much to do right now & the further behind I get, the more anxious I get. Oh well. Maybe tomorrow will be better..

That’s great. It must be a wonderful feeling. Congrats.

It’s been 3 days and multiple calls into both the pharmacy and my doctor and he hasn’t called in my Xanax. I have a ton of it. I’m just worried about why he’s not calling it in. I can’t believe he would just leave me on my own. I’m guessing he’s just busy. It does seem kind of rude though.

I don't know if I'm living or just existing...or if there's really even a difference in the grander scheme of things. Anyway, the ball is rolling towards moving from my current abode of nine years to somewhere better...nearer the forest, the sea and old buddies.

I broke a rule at work. But I was with 2 other people who also did the same thing. Plus I don’t think it was totally our fault. It was mostly our fault. Not 100% though. I’m guessing we might get talked to about it. I’m kind of stressing about it though. It was a 2 Xanax day because of it.

I usually get anxiety from PTSD, especially when I have trigger or memory, flashback or nightmares. Today I've been feeling okay thankfully and haven't felt any anxiety at all. Been pretty relaxed and calm which is a good thing. Anytime I get triggered, the anxiety will stick around for a few days and keep me crying until I'm able to relax.

I'm so relieved that I'm finally relaxed now. Planning on going to bed early tonight. Drank no soda today. Only been drinking bottled water. So my anxiety is good thankfully. I feel so much relief!!

My anxiety is high this week due to montly work responsibility that I hate to do. I just want the week to go by and get to next week.

I was not feeling anxious today. Maybe briefly tonight. But It was mostly physical all day.

Was anxious the first part of the day, but not panicked. Managed to make it out to do a couple of brief errands & check on a few people. Made It back after 3 hours without turning it into a marathon of giving people rides & getting caught up in everyone else’s stuff at the expense of my own well-being. A concept I have long understood in theory but only recently been forced to practice. I only feel a tiny bit guilty. I recognize that I have no choice at this point - if I do not learn this lesson now my life will crash. So, I did accomplish a little bit today. And the cat seems very happy to have me home.

I made a huge mistake yesterday. For a few hours, I kept obsessing about it and since I realized my mistake while I was downtown yesterday, I nearly turned down a one-way street toward an oncoming car--I could have killed both my son and me. I can be a very distracted driver when I get caught up in my thoughts. I am now past the woulda, shoulda, coulda that I went through for a few hours yesterday but the main, serious problem that we were trying to resolve still remains unresolved. The thing is, it is not my problem, I take ownership of my son's problems then only make them worse....and, even worse, he is the one who needs the support but then I fall to pieces and end up needing support when it's his serious problem, not mine. I really don't know how to help him other than take so many meds that I am an unemotional zombie incapable of causing trouble....

My anxiety wasn’t that bad today.

I feel like my anxiety is getting worse

I'm sorry that has happened to you!

This week has been tough on me. At work I have to work extra hours until next Monday (some hours after midnight). I have been tired and seem to have some sort of virus causing me to have a temperature.

My anxiety is getting worse. I am having physical health problem. I'm feel nauseous and having shaky hands or I have chest pain. Or I will burst into tears uncontrollable! Sometimes I will start hyperventilating. Anyone ever experienced this?

I'm glad to hear that!

I experience a racing heart, nauseousness, slight hyperventilation and chest pain periodically and it happened more than one time this week.

I am sorry you are feeling so badly that you are crying so much. That sucks.

I am still having a lot of problems with daniele (the woman who scares me, but is meant to be here to help)

yesterday evening I told myself that if I saw her I'd tell her to go away

well I saw her today and let her in despite saying very little to her

what's wrong with me?

also annoyed and very anxious because someone needs a photo of me for new UK money laws.

well, it isn't going to happen, no photos of me exist anywhere, and I'l be damned if I'm going to let them take one

I went to the mall this morning to buy a present and I was close to panic as I was making the line. After I exit the store and went to the car, my face was warm and I was sweating because the weather was humid outside. I came home and it took me like 30 minutes for the hot flash to go away.