[Butterfly_Faerie]

Last night I felt terrible, I thought I posted about it... Guess not.

I felt almost like I was going to get hysterical. Anxiety was high, but not close to panic but close. I thought I was going to snap and loose it. I was alone in the house and have been at that time for a few hours. I called up my BF and I don't know what the point is when I call him because he gives me no comfort. He doesn't know what to say, he sucks at communicating. But even though he didn't speak to me just having him on the phone helped me ...

I went online after that to keep busy. It sucked, I think it was being alone. I hate being alone.

Food anxiety is up again, over something that is made to flavor up your popcorn? I thought has it gone bad, it's been a few years?

Anxious again today, Been reading all day and doing my boards. But all the boards are slow right now so I am not keeping busy.

I got to try and get a job soon, and i'm scared. Am I really though? I don't know.

I'm feeling frustrated.

I notice that my mood is slowly going downhill. I notice that the days are getting shorter and soon I will have to deal with SAD's again.



Why does it always have to be something? I'm no longer plauged with PTSD, then anxiety starts up, now I think my depression is creeping up on me. I don't want to loose the control.

Why can I never feel good? This summer I did for a bit, I felt great, now I'm feeling like crap again. Will I ever win?

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[wisewoman]

I am sorry sundance. Wish I could offer comfort. You are not alone though, know that.

[Fuzzybear]

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[(JD)]

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[SunshineGold03]

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You are a strong woman and you will get through this!

[Butterfly_Faerie]

Thanks guys

I have self doubt though. I know what I want to get done, but then I start to think to much. It's like a constant non-stop battle.

Starting to feel a tad discouraged.

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[SunshineGold03]

Sundance,
From one anxiety sufferer to another we both know that you will have releapses and up's and down's with these disorders but the key I think is to increase the amount of good days you have over the bad days. And to know that when you have a bad day there are more good ones right around the corner. I think the biggest problem I had initially with getting "mentally" healthy was believing that once I got to a better place I wouldn't experience any bad days. This just frustrated the crap out of me until I said I can be at a better place and still have bad days and that is okay. Once I expected that I felt better and less frustrated with myself.

[Butterfly_Faerie]

Thanks sunshinegold.

I think for me all my anxiety is situations, I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

Alot of anxiety only with certain things.

I also have low self-esteem and low confidence that is why I think anxiety gets me so much. Once I work on those 2 I should be able kick this in the butt.

I automatically assume I will fail or something, that's my problem. I don't have any real faith in myself and I rely on people too much.

I want a job, don't mind the interviews, but what I'm scared that I will get the job, anxiety hits the roof. Usually someone will become anxious to get a call and say that you didn't get the job, when my fear is they will call me up and say that I have it.

That's the problem i'm having right now.

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