ADD, depression, medication?

I have been taking Adderall XR since last fall. I feel as though it (for better or worse?) has made it so that I can focus while I'm at work -- most of the time, though I still find myself doing my own thing even if I feel it's wrong. I notice though that, like today, when I'm not on the medication, I feel (or almost feel?) like I'm depressed or perhaps anxious, but definitely conflicted about what's right or wrong, and in a rut. I feel as though this is how I felt before I started the medication. I'm wondering if it's something normal that I have to address cognitively, or if it's something that the Adderall is addressing as a side effect? Also, if anyone could comment on my apparent insistence on doing my own thing once in a while even at work - if it's normal or if I'm only hurting myself - I would be incredibly appreciative. Thank you so much.

Edit -- Also, I dunno if it's just related to my other issues, but I feel paranoia once in a while, always (I think) in relation to my doing my own thing regardless of my situation.

I'm not on Adderall, although I have a friend who says it works great for him. As far as "doing your own thing", I think it's an "ADHD" common behavior to seek out distractions of interest. The theory is that the ADHD mind has more trouble focusing on tasks of low interest, so he/she tends to seek out activities that involve higher levels of interest (we basically need a greater stimulus than the non-ADHD brain to maintain focus). Meds are supposed to address that by increasing the levels of neurotransmitters in the pre-frontal cortex of the brain. If Adderall helps you to maintain focus and be less "anxious/depressive" than it's a good fit. I do well with Welbutrin, so I'm sticking with that for now. (But my friend seems to love Adderall) Every brain is different. Meds only help, they won't make you focus on every boring thing for hours on end, they're supposed to give you the mental state to be able to practice these things. A lot of times, without meds, I was just too "wound up", stuck in some problem of the past, pacing back and forth at home, not able to move forward. With the meds, my attention was more focused on the present moment. Anyway, I didn't address all your thoughts, but that's my 2 cents on the "doing my own thing" issue.

This is very enlightening information. Thank you very much for it; I feel much more at ease now!

No worries! I'm glad it was helpful!

Your symptoms don't strike me as being medication related from what you wrote. Remember, psychotherapy is often very helpful to us ADHD'ers.