[call me k]

So, I have adhd. The thing is the stupid university health center (I have mandatory student health insuarance and have to go here) took nearly 2 months to diagnose me. Instead of doing the same as regular clinics they made me do some full test that not only lasted a month but took up a great deal of my time. The thing is I went to the doctor so I could get medication cause I was having trouble with class but by the time I actually got the medication the semester was over. My grades are atrocious and the thing is the classes were easy. I just couldn't meet the deadlines for assignments and professors don't accept adhd as an excuse. I'm not a bad student. My grades have been fluctuating. I got a 4.0, a 2.7, a 3.0, a 3.8, a 2.7 and now probably a 2.5 in for the past 6 semesters in university. My cumulative GPA is ruined. And the fact that I failed EASY classes is going to be permanently on my transcript. I can't explain this to professors and there goes my chances of getting into graduate school and getting a job. My whole life I've had people tell me that if I just live up to my (stupid, ****ing) "great potential" things will work out. But I'm sick of hearing it. I just want to cry. It's not fair. I've been trying my best. I didn't know I had ADHD now that I do I can probably get meds to help but I can't change my past, my grades and feeling stupid my whole life. On top of that I'm going to need a **** load of money to pay for retaking my tests. Now I have loans on top of disappointed parents to worry about. Thanks life! and **** you! I know I'm whining but I just needed to vent. I'll get over it soon hopefully

[RisuNeko]

What was going on in your life when you got the 4.0? I'm sorry you're having so much difficulty. But just know when you're looking for a job they don't really care or ask about your GPA on the applications. Getting into grad school is a different story, but maybe you can find a good job without going to grad school. What is your major?

Originally Posted by call me k

So, I have adhd. The thing is the stupid university health center (I have mandatory student health insuarance and have to go here) took nearly 2 months to diagnose me. Instead of doing the same as regular clinics they made me do some full test that not only lasted a month but took up a great deal of my time. The thing is I went to the doctor so I could get medication cause I was having trouble with class but by the time I actually got the medication the semester was over. My grades are atrocious and the thing is the classes were easy. I just couldn't meet the deadlines for assignments and professors don't accept adhd as an excuse. I'm not a bad student. My grades have been fluctuating. I got a 4.0, a 2.7, a 3.0, a 3.8, a 2.7 and now probably a 2.5 in for the past 6 semesters in university. My cumulative GPA is ruined. And the fact that I failed EASY classes is going to be permanently on my transcript. I can't explain this to professors and there goes my chances of getting into graduate school and getting a job. My whole life I've had people tell me that if I just live up to my (stupid, ****ing) "great potential" things will work out. But I'm sick of hearing it. I just want to cry. It's not fair. I've been trying my best. I didn't know I had ADHD now that I do I can probably get meds to help but I can't change my past, my grades and feeling stupid my whole life. On top of that I'm going to need a **** load of money to pay for retaking my tests. Now I have loans on top of disappointed parents to worry about. Thanks life! and **** you! I know I'm whining but I just needed to vent. I'll get over it soon hopefully

I'm sorry to hear that. Do you think you can retake the classes you did poorly in to raise your GPA? I'm pretty sure the poor record of your first go will still be there but at least the GPA would be higher.

[sideblinded]

I am glad that you got to vent. I hope that it helped. I also have ADHD but I am long gone from those school years.

I am sorry that we didn't welcome you any sooner to PC. So welcome to the community and I hope that you keep posting.

[call me k]

Originally Posted by sideblinded

I am glad that you got to vent. I hope that it helped. I also have ADHD but I am long gone from those school years.

I am sorry that we didn't welcome you any sooner to PC. So welcome to the community and I hope that you keep posting.

Thanks! I guess there's no point complaining about the past. I'm focused on the future now.

[RisuNeko]

I'm in a similar situation. My pdoc refuses to officially evaluate me for adhd for several stupid and imo invalid reasons (for instance because I'm bipolar) and I'm worried that the term will end before I get on a medication that helps and I will fail my class and lose my ability to apply for doctoral programs altogether. I'm getting very impatient and frustrated with my pdoc.

[precisonclear]

You all might want to look into Nootropics, which are unclassified, they are considered "smart drugs" but basically very similiar to Ritalin and Adderal.

They have very little in terms of side effects and instead of paying $300 for a bottle, it's like $8 in powder form. These are a lot stronger than vitamin supplements, you don't want to take too much.

but speaking of which, Omega 3 is actually a big deal for ADHD sufferer's.

I'd recommend reading up on it if you haven't done so.

[RisuNeko]

What are some boot ropes to try. I've tried piracetam in the past and I can't remember if it helped. I might get some more and try to work it into my routine.

[juniorz]

I can feel for what you are going through. I was not diagnosed with ADHD until I was 28. Medications will help with some things. Just remember, you can do everything that anyone else can do. You just need to find other ways to do it. You will probably need more organizational help and structure. You will need to find organizational ways that work for you.

Here is the advice I can give to you:

• Take inventory of what ADHD symptoms you are having trouble with. For instance organization. Find ways to minimize these challenges. There are many great resources online that can help with almost any ADHD symptom.
• Remember your attitude affects your whole world. If you see yourself as disabled and everything is impossible then it will be.
• For all the ADHD challenges there are also many benefits including high IQ, high creativity, ability to think outside the box, etc. There are many highly successful people with ADHD

[RisuNeko]

My smartest professor in college like genius level had adhd really bad.

I have already bought an adhd daily planner that has every half hour blocked out and daily and weekly goals and other good organizational ideas. I use it when I remember and it has been helping. I've only missed one appointment since getting it and the appointment I missed wad for a different reason not because I forgot about it. Thanks for the advice. I really do need organizational help. Especially in my living space. My room looks like a hurricane zone at all times and I just can't seem to fix it. But I'm working on that. I also have organizational problems at school and at work. I made a list of some of my symptoms and emailed the list to my pdoc but he barely looked at it and did nothing about it. I'll try to make a better list on my computer to print and bring to my next pdoc and to work on on my own until then. And maybe to show to my therapist. You're right that we just have to find different ways if doing things by being creative. Thank goodness I have creativity in spades.

[LaLa land boy]

ADHD has killed my life. I have to be honest about myself, I'm not trying to degrade myself when I say this, but I truly believe no one has the severity level of ADHD more than me. Like the adhd is so bad in me that my psychiatrist has gone on record in saying that no patient has he ever had did not respond to stimulants he's prescribed. I forget things in 15 minute spurts no less a couple hours. Not only is this a major problem, but I find myself constantly daydreaming at work. Part of the reason I got fired from this past job was because I didn't contribute in a common planning meeting for my teaching job. We discuss lesson planning and such in common planning, but I found I could simply not focus enough to have a discussion because of daydreaming and stress. I find that every task I do seems to take me at 5-6 hours to do it such as grading and I become so mentally exhausted from it. I guess my outlook as far as work goes is that it's nothing but busy work. The way I look at tasks is that I'm being tortured to death, which makes it harder for me, because I find in my life I have such limited passions. Does this mean I never try hard at work to get money? Of course not, but I find accomplishing tasks never give me satisfaction or instill any kind of a feeling in me other than "thank god the torture is over."

I think another observation about myself is that I constantly only fantasize about the glory days of the 90s and 80s. I never seem to find enjoyment of any tv show or movies of the modern era, which I feel hurts me greatly in conversation, which in turns hurts me at work. My therapist seems to think my aversions to the present has to do with me having such a short attention span. In other words, if I'm not instantly gratified or interests me period I daydream through it. My suggestion is if anyone has doubts about their career because of ADHD consult a career counselor or try to do a job where tasks are limited or manageable. I'm giving teaching one more try, but I'm not expecting a whole lot out of it since the tasks seem to be too strenuous for my mind.

The saddest part of ADHD is that people look at you as though you're incompetent or something, but when they look at autism or some notable disease they act like it's understandable. People

[astrodeb]

Originally Posted by call me k

So, I have adhd. The thing is the stupid university health center (I have mandatory student health insuarance and have to go here) took nearly 2 months to diagnose me. Instead of doing the same as regular clinics they made me do some full test that not only lasted a month but took up a great deal of my time. The thing is I went to the doctor so I could get medication cause I was having trouble with class but by the time I actually got the medication the semester was over. My grades are atrocious and the thing is the classes were easy. I just couldn't meet the deadlines for assignments and professors don't accept adhd as an excuse. I'm not a bad student. My grades have been fluctuating. I got a 4.0, a 2.7, a 3.0, a 3.8, a 2.7 and now probably a 2.5 in for the past 6 semesters in university. My cumulative GPA is ruined. And the fact that I failed EASY classes is going to be permanently on my transcript. I can't explain this to professors and there goes my chances of getting into graduate school and getting a job. My whole life I've had people tell me that if I just live up to my (stupid, ****ing) "great potential" things will work out. But I'm sick of hearing it. I just want to cry. It's not fair. I've been trying my best. I didn't know I had ADHD now that I do I can probably get meds to help but I can't change my past, my grades and feeling stupid my whole life. On top of that I'm going to need a **** load of money to pay for retaking my tests. Now I have loans on top of disappointed parents to worry about. Thanks life! and **** you! I know I'm whining but I just needed to vent. I'll get over it soon hopefully

My daughter has similar issues. She was not diagnosed until her final semester at college, so she did not have any ADHD accommodation or treatment. Her GPA suffered as a result. This is very common among smart students since they don't usually suffer consequences from the condition until they are taking classes with their academic peers in college. Since you (may) have another year to go, consider taking some summer classes or doing summer research ionce you have accommodation or treatment set up. Even after graduation, if you continue to take college courses, they may average into your overall GPA, raising the cumulative GPA over time. Work on improving your GPA during senior year, do some extra research during or after college, and the lower GPA semesters will just be something to explain in your essay. Plenty of professional scientists faced challenges of this sort at your age, so many grad schools and workplaces are sympathetic. After a few months at work, my daughter admitted to her boss that she had ADHD. He laughed and said, "me too!"

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