[Jmall]

I can never be good enough. Not for my parents, my family, nor my friends. I feel like a burden to everybody I know. I go to school at a horrible horrible place during the week, then on the weekend juggle my annoying self between parents that dislike me. Cousins that are annoyed by me, and friends that I will never be good enough for.

Both of my YOUNGER brothers have perfect vision, are mentally sound, and have movie-star good looks. I on the other hand... have 20/200 (if not worse by now) vision, have all kinds of mental issues, and while decently fit, not very attractive at all. What the **** did I do wrong? I will never look good without plastic surgery, I will never see well without lasek. I will never have social prowess. So what the **** is the point?

I talked to a psychiatrist that told me I am not a good candidate for anti depressants. That I just need a purpose in life. Well gee, thanks doc, I'll get right on finding that, as soon as I can motivate myself to get out of bed without thinking to myself "I don't want to be alive."

[HelplessHope]

Wow I find that what u said was beautiful.In reality it isn't but I find it beautiful because my bf has aspergers syndrome and his life sounded identical to urs until he met me.People with Autism always feel that way.Alone like they can never have a real connection with anyone and are never good enough no matter how they try.Keep ur head up and ur heart open.There will be someone or something out there that is going to be the answer to ur hard feelings.And that is all ur going to need just that one thing.Don't give up.

[birdcrazy]

I could have wrote that... well, slightly different to match my circumstances and I'm not fit, lol, but seriously I would assume you might have an interest? I try to find worth in myself by trying my best to help out nature, even if it is something as simple as just counting the birds around me and sending it off for scientific research.

But I am often depressed, even if I'm not good at it in real life, I try to talk to people, even if it's just over the internet. Talking out problems helps a lot to.

Jmall, get evaluated by a different psychiatrist.

You seem to have self-esteem issues. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy may help: http://www.behavioralassociates.com/cbt.asp
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/15-...e-distortions/
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/fixing-cognitive-distortions/

Comparing yourself to your brothers does nothing to better your life. Getting better is hard work: http://www.helpguide.org/mental/ment...nal_health.htm
http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/1752

Good luck.

[Callista]

Anybody who says you're worthless is lying. I've never yet met a person who was worthless, and I really doubt you'd break that pattern. So what if you're nerdy and you need glasses? How does that make you any worse than people who were born with good vision and a talent for social skills? They didn't work for those things... whereas you, most likely, have been working your butt off to get your social skills at least halfway up to par.

Frankly, I'm sick and tired of the way people tell perfectly good crazy folks that they're not worth anything. Yeah, I'm crazy, and I'm proud of it, and if they don't like it they can go take a hike, y'know?

BTW--I wear glasses, too (and 20/200-something). Suggest you go & find yourself a nice stylish set of frames--they can really add to your look. Oh, and make them do the high-refraction-index plastic lenses; you don't want thick lenses 'cause they'll just make your eyes look funny.

How are you doing, Jmall?