I hate bipolar disorder

BIPOLAR...you have taken ENOUGH from me!!!!! You are not taking any more!!!!!!

But then we wouldn't have you. And I'm so glad to have you.

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I hate it too. We're not the disease; we just have it. I agree that it's taken too much from you, me, everyone. And everyone I know on here with bipolar are beautiful people who are tormented with this thing. Don't believe the depression that it will last forever, or you're useless or defective (what I always think when I'm in the depths). You've already accomplished so much in spite of it and you help others on a daily basis.

You may have no idea how much good you've done in this world. How many lives you've healed. And they will be there for you when you need help if you ask.

But it makes you who your are and thats special...

I hate it, too. Because it has stolen time and joy from my family. Because other "normal" families don't understand what we deal with. Yet, it was the dreamer in my husband that I fell in love with. His wild roller-coaster rides of emotion that he would take me on. The intensity of my son and the depth of feelings we experience. The sense of humor and justice that my family has. If it weren't for bipolar, I would lack compassion for others. I used to be a much more judgmental person.
Plus, when we were riding high, we went to Australia, Alaska, Mexico, Costa Rica, Bahamas, etc!!! He sure knows how to have fun!

Bipolar is so very difficult. I never know when the depression part is going to pop it's ugly head. Which it has lately. As well as the brain behaving badly. Which may be my new medications. I will talk about this immediately to my doctor - just can't seem to get out of the depression mood of Bipolar which seems like FOREVER.

I haven't had any major manic esposides - Which is okay, but sometimes I like it. People think I'm totally off my rocker and stay away from me during these times.

I do like the extra energy I have when the Up side of my Bipolar is around. I take advantage of it and get lots of things done.

Yes, I hate biplor as well. But I know nothing else BUT this way of life.

Hyper or Zombie

Bipolar has taken my social skills and turned them into mashed turnips. I can't make close friends.

Bipolar has taken my intelligence and smashed it into bits. Grad school flunk out.

Bipolar makes it feel like I am actually happy...then takes it all away. I lived for those few days of hypomania where I felt good about myself, and the sun was shining in my mind. Now I am not allowed to even have that little sliver of hope. Lithium has taken that away well.

Bipolar waits until I think I am feeling okay...then out come the intrusive thoughts and the guilt and the feeling worthless...and it can last for years..eventually making me feel like death is the only way out sometimes. (not suicidal now, just to let you know)

Can you guys tell I am in a depressive episode? LOL

I have been on Lithium for MONTHS and the depression is getting worse. What can I do?

Um...get off of lithium. I'd ask your meds person to adjust your meds in some way. If you've tried lithium for months and it's still not helping or making worse your depressed mood, there has to be something else! I would go to another doc if they won't adjust your meds. That's what I'm planning on doing if I have another week of nose dive depression and I'm told to walk it off. Not like I had a baseball hit me in the stomach...I felt much worse than that. I'd actually rather be in purely physical pain than mental anguish. But you know how it is. I say bring back the hypomania, but I might be the little devil on your shoulder.

I have been SOOOOOO tempted to bring back hypomania....I have my coffee for very minor hypomania, Percoset for a day or two of hypomania...then I have my old Zoloft prescription for the NUCLEAR OPTION!!!!!!

Actually I have found a pretty good benefit to Lithium but I am whining about depression at the moment LOL. Lithium has eliminated the anxiety, the frantic energy, the constant having to move, and the agitation that would drive me nuts. The ruminating thoughts that would keep me from sleeping are gone too.

All of your latter paragraph's symptoms were cured for me by 50-75mg of Seroquel at night. Lil' devil again, but you don't necessarily need lithium, although I'm not a doc and you should ask them about alternatives. (like duh, you already know, it's just my disclaimer...thinker's advice may cause withdrawals, headaches, nausea, fine hand tremor, hallucinations of movie stars in your bedroom, and unauthorized pterodactyl screeches.)

It's good to share you depression moods. It is so much better than being alone with them, when there are so many of us with the same ups and downs with this diesase.
It's not fun - interesting - never boring , but definetly trying.

I hate certain aspects of my bipolar, it has taken quite a bit from me also, but a mild case of mania is always a good thing

Yes, I like a bit of mania myself.

Oh mania, I will miss you the most.

(In Daily Show w/John Stewart voice)

If I drink anything with caffeeine, sugar, fake sugar ==== my brain goes speeding...

So sometimes I do it just to get a boast

But coming down I get b---hy