[Berries]

Is it common for Bipolars to have intrusive thoughts that tell you you aren't really sick and you don't deserve to take meds or you don't need them?

I went off my meds for 2 months because of the thoughts. It was awful and I was only able to get back on meds through getting monthly injections.

I feel and behave better now, but I am getting those thoughts again. And they shout: 2 months isn't long enough!!!!! You were just experiencing withdrawal not a bipolar episode!!!!!

Can anyone relate?

[Amazonmom]

I don't have intrusive thoughts about meds very often, but BOY do I have them about other stuff.

I don't actually see or hear these thoughts, but it's like remembering a picture or a song.

Occasionally I do have the thoughts that "No way is anything really wrong with me...it's all over now". Then the cycle starts all over. When I have those thoughts now I tell them that there is something wrong. Normies don't have cycles of suicidal depression and elated hyperactivity. I tell the thoughts "YOU LIE YOU LIE YOU LIE".

Berries, tell those thoughts they lie. Those bad thoughts don't want you to be happy/stable/whatever.

[thinker22]

I don't know. I wish I did. I've only been dx'd bipolar since June and haven't been on meds for mood stabilizing before that. I almost came off of everything but that was due to a bad reaction with Seroquel.

Don't listen though (to the thoughts) because as much as I'm loving my high and hate my depression, everyone's probably right and I will crash land. So it's better to be a little more even keeled and prevent the worst.

T-storms starting. Way cool the rumbling.



My intrusive thoughts are usually negative or outright gory. I question taking my meds all the time though. It will probably be a battle for the rest of my life because once you do get the right combo you think you're fine and if you don't, you want to give up altogether.

[Lauru]

I have had intrusive thoughts of all kinds before. Including the, I'm not that bad, I'm not really bipolar, I can stop the meds and be fine! Tell the thoughts they lie and keep taking the meds even if you don't want to. Once you take the meds for awhile, you should get over that hump and start thinking more clearly again. You might also want to tell your pnurse about the thoughts

[BNLsMOM]

My thoughts include that I should be dead or that I should disappear, that no one loves me and that I am alone. That I should go find another place to live, that my family is better off without me. All that good lovely stuff.

[Zen888]

Berries, I can totally relate to what you are experiencing. I have intrusive thoughts that tell me or question my mental stability all the time. I have been stabilized for almost 2.5 years without hospitalizations or ER visits. I often ponder things such as: Do I really have bipolar disorder? Do I really need to take 4 different types of medication to feel "normal" or to reduce mood changes? Could the doctors be incorrect about my "mental illness"? Are you sure there isn't a herbal supplement or vitamins I could be taking so I don't gain so much weight?

Questions I have are endless!

But one thing I know for sure is that I do not want to have a manic episode ever again. Mine are VERY embarrassing and I am totally ashamed of myself. So like it or lump it I am chained to my medications until they find a cure for bipolar disorder!