ugh

I'm stuck.... something's gotta give. COuldn't feel worse if I was run over by a truck.

Sad to hear you are going through it. Sending you a big .

It can't stay like this forever. Have you seen your p-doc lately? Any med changes in the recent past or coming up?

My moods on the decline too, just feeling not quite right. I hope you get to feeling a little better soon. One never knows about how these things work.

gravyyy... that is such a yucky place to be... been there a lot myself lately (and even said, "feel like I've been run over by a truck(!)" -- it does, doesn't it?) and it's very frustrating. You did have a very challenging day yesterday... perhaps it's residual or a reaction to that??? (That's kind of a hard thing to describe, but does it make sense?)
Hope you are feeling better soon, and remember.... we are here

Sorry you feel so stuck. I hate it when that happens to me. Just try and keep in mind that it will pass.

I'm sorry, gravyyy. It will pass. Maybe a call to the p-doc for a tweak?

My kitty Grizabella is sending you lots of wet sloppy kisses to help un-stick you, and I'm sending lots of hugs...hope you feel better soon!!!

I'm sorry, that is such a tough place to be. I really wish there was an easy answer for these feelings. Hang in there. I know it's easier said than done.

gravyyy, so sorry your not doing well, i too have been feeling very off, its so frusterating,i know, try to rest if your tired, screw the chores! take care

gravy big hug!!!!

I'm going to be honest here... I remember being online last night. I don't however have any memory of posting this (which means it's a definite true feeling since I had no 'rational brain' at the time). In that case, your comments mean so much to me because I knew I felt off today but didn't realize it was that bad last night. That's part of the problem I get 'stuck' often throughout the day but don't remember what happens during that time. Ugh.. thanks for your support. I have seen pdoc and T and apparently this is as good as it gets right now. We'll see...

So sorry gravyyy - hope you get better soon. I can empathise with feeling so crappy and just blocking out all reality. I hope you at least manage to get some sleep - I usually take a sleeping tabs and pass out when I'm feeling like this. I know i can get "irrational" (Not sure that it really is irrational, at the time it definitely doesn't feel like it!) when I feel like this - I sms the whole world, I threaten to take all my tabs in one go just to get some release from the agony.
Drop me a PM if you want to vent - just rest in the knowledge that you do suffer from BP, which luckily comes in cycles; therefore this too shall pass

gravyyy, I would tell the psychiatrist you want a second opinion. To be told this is as good as it gets is not good enough.

pdoc didn't exactly say that but he's making med changes soooo slowly. I appreciate that b/c I have to get to work so I can't deal with side effects but I hate it b/c I've not been stable in 3 years. I need a fresh start, hense the 'rehab' idea. He is doing the best he can with what he was given. I'd definitely go see him again if I end up going to 'rehab.'

I know the quandary you are in with regards to med changes happening too slowly. I have gotten so frustrated with my pdoc before. And not finding stability doesn't help either.
2 weeks ago I was spiraling into such major depression I just wanted out. I phoned my pdoc who got really worried and wanted me to go to hospital. She had scared me a few weeks prior by saying that by now, and on the med combo, I shouldn't be having such bad depression, and if it still was not better we'd have to discuss ECT. Anyway, I slept it off and harrassed a few close friends for support and got through it.
Back to the real crux - I was then considering i needed to be in hospital to be safe, but I could not afford to go off work at that time (Too much work and exams round the corner too). While I didn't go, and managed to get thro the episode, I still get angry at myself for allowing my work to get in the way of my health and sanity. If I hadn't been working, I would have gone to hospital.
Your idea of a fresh start sounds radicle, but possibly necessary - it's a lot fairer on a new pdoc, especially if you really like and trust him, to start on a clean slate. But it's not easy for you. And I definitely wouldn't imagine it to be possible as an outpatient.

I'm on Sodium Valporate, and if I don't start stabilising soon, I need to change to Lamictin - not sure if this can be done while I continue working, or if going cold turkey and starting on the new meds as an inpatient is better.